Dare To Be Different[Ashton Irwin Fanfiction]

Calum's secret.

Forever.

"Forever's a pretty long time Ashton" I replied. "It isn't if your with the love of your life" He grinned, i looked away smiling. His dimples always pop out and their really cute but really annoying. "Oii, Ashton's girly i need a word?" Calum whispered. I smiled and walked to him, he pulled me into his room and i saw a girl sat on the bed, "Who-who's this?" I whispered. "This is Megan, she's my secret girlfriend, the lads cannot know, the fans think I'm single and so do the boys, i told you because i trust you" He replied. I walked over, nodding and smiled at her, "Hey there I'm Ashton's girlfriend, hi Meg, you don't mind me calling you that, do you?" I asked the pretty girl sat on the bed, "Hello, what is your name?" She asked. "I'm Mia, i welcome you to the 5SOS girlfriends" I giggled, she smiles and i turn to Calum and say, "Tell the boys, please?" He shakes his head, no. "I will, if you don't" I sternly say. He smiles and grabs her hand, walking out. I bounce out and run into Ash's arms, he smiles widely and replies, "Hey babe" kissing the top off my head, smiling. His eyes divert to Megan when he lifts back up, "Cal ma-" I cover his mouth and let Calum speak, "LUKEY BABY, MIKEY BABE?" He shouts, they come in smiling, then it fades, "br-?" I run to Luke and cover his mouth, "This is Megan" Calum says, pointing to her. "My girlfriend" He smiles, hoping the boys would be okay with this secret, "Well I'm happy for you bro" Mikey and Ashton say at the same time. Luke walks across the room and into his bedroom, locking the door. I smile and walk over to his private place, knocking on, "Luke babe? It's Mia, let me in, please?" I looked back at the boys, smiling but Ash was looking down with no emotion. 

"I'm so happy for you Calum, really she's beautiful" I say, smiling. "I know she is, she's so perfect, she listens when i need her, she's really kind and thoughtful, she's the one" He replies. She was showering at the moment so me, Calum and Ash had a private convosation about her, "Well, how long have you been together?" I ask, "Almost two months" He says. I smile and he puts his hand on mine, "Ash did well too" He adds. Ash smiles but takes his hand off me, "Yeah, that's the meaning off Ashton's girl" He spits. I put my hand on his thigh, relaxing him. He smiles, calmly. "Bro, calm down, no ones trying to steal your girl. There's only Mikey left who needs a girl, so calm it!" He raises his brows, rises up from his seat and walks away. I smile and turn in my seat, "Ashton I'm your girl. I promise ill never let anything come between us, we were made for each other, right? That's why fate brought us together" I say. "Yeah, maybe babe, but I'm serious, I hate it when guys hit on you" He replies. I smile and gently let my head fall onto his thighs. He slowly runs his fingers through my hair and says, "Baby, I'm not saying you stink but can you go get a shower? We have a family day tomorrow and-" I put my finger on his lips and say, "Babe, a simple go shower would have been okay" I giggle and lift my head up. I press my lips firmly to his and ran upstairs.

UGLY

Useless

Loser

Kill Yourself

Cut

You're not even worth it!

As i showered those words rushed into my head. I reached down, picking up the little box full of blades and carefully took one out. I cut my thighs, my wrists, my arms, my stomach, my waist and every place i can find. Making little small marks, i know will stay. The door knob slowly turns, i quickly rush to hide my body but its too late, Ash walks in and sees the water filled with blood, "What did you do?" He asks, angry.

"It's really not a big deal, i don't see why you had to drag the boys in, Kim and Megan who hardly even knows me" I shout, Ashton has me sat in some shorts and a tank on his lap. "Too show the boys this is what happens when they don't help their girlfriends out, Kim's your best friend too. She needs to know!" He spits back. "Why would you do this Mia? Why?" Kim screams. "BECAUSE THE FANS ARE RIGHT, I'M NOT PRETTY ENOUGH TO BE 'ASHTON IRWINS' GIRLFRIEND, WHY ARE THEY SO RIGHT?" I shout, tears form and i jump off his lap and run into mine and Ash's bedroom, I get under the duvet and cover it as tight as i can, their right.