Bittersweet Emotions

Chapter 16 ~Love

{Your Pov}

I drag my full bag behind me making it hover above the ground, not caring if it got damaged. My face was red for my tears, my hair was a complete mess and my eyes stung from all the crying. I didn't know where to go, I didn't have anywhere to go. The old apartment technically wasn't mine so I can't go back there. I did have my wallet but I didn't have much money in it because I spend most of it at the bar.

It had been a few hours, it was probably 1am or something.

I dragged my feet across the hard concrete ground of the street keeping my eyes glued to the ground. The only light was that of the few street light ahead but still that wasn't a lot of light.

I lift my head to see where I had dragged myself off to. A small park stood in front of me. I sigh, a small smile spread across my face. "Back at square one, huh." I silently chuckle to myself.

I walk over to a bench and rest my head on the back of it. "Why do I have to get involved in things. All the time I just end up messing things up, always." I say aloud to myself, sniffling while trying to stop my tears from falling again. I quickly wipe them away and take a deep breath.

"I wasn't good enough, yeah that's it. He never even cared about me. It was all just sympathy, that's it." I say looking up at the sky seeing the stars shining by themselves. "I should just leave this stupid world, I just fuck everything up and make it worse so it'll probably be fine if I was gone. I get up and walk away from the park, not long after I came across an old unused bridge. Perfect.

I throw my bag on the ground and hoist myself onto the sturdy railing of the bridge. It was pretty high up from the ground, just a bunch of rocks and debris sit at the bottom of the hill the bridge was built between.

"Y/n!" I turn my head to the side slowly and look at where the voice came from.

"Jungkook what are you doing here?" I say quietly and look him dead in the eyes.

"We've all been looking for you. Everyone is looking all over the city for you- What are you doing!?" He runs up to me.

"Go away." I say bluntly, looking back down from the bridge.

"NO! Don't do this. Please, I have no idea what you're thinking but it wasn't his fault. Yoongi was drugged." Jungkook runs to me grabbing my wrist to stop me.

"I'm a failure Jungkook! My parents hate me because of everything I fuck up, I was abused by my boyfriend but I was too much of a pussy to do anything about it! And then there's Yoongi, he's done so much for me but I can't do a thing to thank him and I'm always getting him into some sort of trouble. Let me do this Jungkook I'm begging you. Just forget about me and let me kill myself. Tell Yoongi thank you, for helping me that night. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have lasted that little bit longer." I rip my wrist from his grip, almost crying my heart out. If I jumped then all this pain would go away.

"Y/n listen to me!" He grabs my arm with both his hands, holding it tight.

"Let me go!"

"No." His grip on me tightens. "Just listen to me. Yoongi is looking everywhere for you and he's not going to stop until he finds you. He wants to know that you're safe, he needs to know that you're okay."

"Why would he care. He doesn't care about me so leave me alone." I try to shove him off but nothings working.

"Stop acting like a child. It wasn't his fault, he was drugged and couldn't do anything about it. You would know this if you didn't run away." Jungkook let me go and I turned to face him, tears falling down my cheeks. "Y/n he does care about you, a lot. Why do you think he helped you in the first place. It's not just him either. We all love you so much. It may not be the same love but trust me Jin, Taehyung, Namjoon, Jimin, Hoseok, Yoongi and I, we all love you and care for you even if yours and Yoongi hyung's love is completely different to ours. You're part of my family Y/n!"

More tears fall from my eyes and I begin to sob at his emotional words. He takes my bag from the ground and places it over his shoulder. "Lets go before everyone thinks we're dead." Jungkook takes my hand and starts walking back the way he came. I follow behind and he sends a quick message on his phone. I don't utter a single word, he was right, I was acting like a child. Thinking the pain would go away if I killed myself. How stupid. That would only make others hurt even more.

We get back to the house, neither one of us said a word during the entire time not wanting to break the comfortable silence. "Y/n!! Why'd you leave us?" Taehyung attacks me with a big tight hug as soon as I walk through the door. "Whatever you do just remember that we all love you." He cries into my shoulder causing the others to see what he was making so much noise for.

"Y-Y/N." Taehyung gets off me leaving me staring straight at Yoongi. His eyes were red and his newly dyed blonde hair was a complete mess on top of his head.

He pushed everyone away and engulfed me in a tight embrace. I hear his quiet sobs next to my ear and him gasping for air from the tears. "Please don't do that ever again. I was so scared that I hurt you or that you might have hurt yourself. No matter what I'll always love you and I'll never do anything so stupid again." Yoongi cries while choking on his own breath. I'm taken aback from his reaction, Yoongi looked so... broken, now I actually feel like a child. Reacting the way I did was to stupid and pointless because I would just come running back into his arms again.

It was so weird hearing him act like this. Yoongi usually didn't show such strong emotions but I guess this meant he really did care, he cared a lot about me.

"I-I'm sorry." Was all I could say, I began tearing up as well. Yoongi lets go and rests his forehead against mine looking me straight in the eye. He smiles once he sees my eyes shine from the tears. Yoongi places his hand on my cheek and wipes away the tears with his thumb.

"Guys this is too cliche, just kiss already." Namjoon calls out from the living room. Yoongi sighs and faces him. By the look on Namjoon's face, Yoongi wasn't happy. Yoongi chased him through the house, all that could be heard was Namjoon's loud screams and Yoongi yelling at him because he ruined the mood.

"Y/n, thanks for not leaving."