Feelings

Why

How can I look at you without feeling hurt?
Without feeling betrayed?
You were my everything.
I thought I was yours.
You become more distant.
Less loving.
Going out early, staying out late.
I ask what's wrong.
You won't answer me.
Why won't you answer me?
I try my best to meet your needs.
To be the best I can be.
My best must not be good enough.
You turn away.
You become abusive.
Your actions unjust.
Why must you do this to me?
Why must you hurt me in these horrible ways?
Never, not once have you hit me.
Then why do I feel as if you just stabbed me in the heart?
Why do I feel as if I'm bruised, tattered, destroyed?
You talk to me as if I'm the gum on the bottom of your shoe.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I should leave.
No, I can't.
Why?
Because I love you.
You love me too, don't you?