Sometimes I feel dead I feel like a ghost.
I don't feel anything inside expect my stomach from day #3 of not eating .
I don't need to eat I'm going to get bigger..... Bigger then I already am.
I don't feel anything anymore and I don't even know why.
My life isn't that bad I mean for me it is but compared to others I'm okay
I'm okay ....right?
Why do I feel like I'm crazy?
Why do I wanna leave and never come back?
Why is it that at a period time of the day i get so depressed?
I want to scratch until my arm is numb
I want to hurt myself in order to not think it even feel releif....
Like I'm in control of something happening to me
I get high cause i feel something new
I get drunk cause its something new
I want to do things
I'm stuck in this house cause of the way my family is with each other
I want pain
I crave pain
I crave it so bad I punch anything I scratch harder
Im failing everything ...school...friends.....my family
Im emotional drained
I want to be left alone but I want to be in someones arms
Idk what I need but this is what I want
