Silent Scream

Chapter ~5 - Why Me?

It's getting so small. I feel like I'm suffocating. My head is pulsing. Everything is getting so tingly. I feel so dizzy, my head spinning. I breathe hard and sit on the floor covering my ears. The ringing is too loud. " Help, h-help me please!" I'm sobbing hysterically. My vision clears. I see a figure...the shape of a person. "M-mom?" My vision clears a bit more. I stood up hastily. The figure spoke in a voice i recognize. Not my mom. Not Jayden either. "Guess again, sweet stuff." What? Who would call me that? My voice trembles and my lip quivers. I'm not sure why, but i am terrified of the voice.

"Wh-who are you?"

"Don't you recognize me? All our good times together?"

I suddenly remember the voice.

"No...."

"Oh, yes. You're coming with me."

"Nooo!" I screamed.

He came towards me, smiling. I start to walk backwards, fear in my eyes. Then I tripped on something, I felt like it was an endless fall. I sat up in my bed breathing heavily in drenched in cold sweat. My head was pounding and my eyes were tearing up. I hugged my pillow tight and softly started crying.

"Are you gonna want a ride to school?"

"Hellloooo????" My brother waved his spoon in front of my eyes.

"Hmmm..?" I looked at him.

"Do. You. Want. A. Ride. To. School?????"

"Oh, um yeah sure. I guess."

"You seem out of it. I mean more than usual." He let out a small chuckle.

I smiled slightly. "I'm fine" I let out a small chuckle to sell the part. 

"Sooo....ride or not?" 

"Yeah, sure."

Walking down the hallways shouldn't be as hard, right? I did it yesterday. But it wasn't the best welcome back. Judgmental stares and whispering. It's enough to make someone go insane after my experience. But I can't blame them. It's just them being stupid human teenagers. But...why me? Why did I have to be the one to get kidnapped and raped? Why do I have to deal with the judgment and the cold words? 

I walk slowly through the doors of school and walked down the hallway. One step, one breath. Two steps, two breathes. Three steps, three breaths. The feeling of eyes burning in my back came once again. Everything seemed to go slow motion. All eyes were on me. But I don't think they were the same eyes. They looked at me different then yesterday. Maybe because I actually did something that felt normal. My makeup, the dressing up, the shoes, and the bag. I decided to be more confident. Or at least try. I walked with my 4 inch pink Manolos. My light brown hair with natural highlights was curled nicely. I wore a light blue top and capris. I had a nice shade of bronze for eyeshadow and catty eyeliner. They made my blue green eyes pop. My lips were pink and lucious. I took out my gloss and put some on. I put it back in my designer bag I got for Christmas 2 years ago. I walked confidently and I felt better then I have in ages! Even my old friends looked at me in awe.
"Heeeeyyyyy babeeeeee..glad to see you back and better hun." Loren said. Loren in the narcissistic one in the group. She always thinks she's prettier and better than everyone else. She's also a major bitch.
"I was here yesterday, 'babe'. " I said with a  slight sarcastic tone.
"Oh! I didn't realize, you looked so different. You should sit with us again, you know...get back to the way used to be?"
"No, I don't think so. I'm gonna hang out with my brother during lunch and I have therapy for 3rd. " I looked around for someone else to talk to. Yeah I love Loren and all. She's always been my favorite. But after everything things are just different and I can see that she's just a fucking cunt. I start to turn the other way when Kasey calls my name.
"Hey Jezz! I love your outfit today. We should catch up, feel like skipping 4th? " Kasey was the sensitive one in the group. Any mean comment like "your lipgloss doesn't match you today" she would scream at you and cry. She always got what she wanted. But then again...we all used to get what we wanted. There's one more friend left. And that'd be me. I was the queen bee of the group. I always got what I wanted. I wanted Jonathan, the "hottest" guy on the football team? Yeah well I got him. I wanted that new bag on sale? If I didn't have the money, someone would beg to buy it for me. I was a diva and always decieved others. And I will be honest...I wasn't innocent. Yes, I was a virgin, but not innocent. I was also the "whore" of the school, but nobody dared to say it. I was always willing to comply with a guy to get what I wanted. But I just couldn't fuck them. I just teased. I even gave a nerd a good time just for him to do my history project. Ugh I was such an idiot.
"I can't Kasey, I've got Math and it's my first day back to it. Since yesterday was a B day. Ya know? Love to, but can't."
And with that said I walked to my locker. I put in my combo in opened the locker. My jaw dropped and I covered my mouth to stop me from screaming. There, dangling by a string, was a picture of Celosia. Covered in whip marks and her lip bloody. She was tied down in an eagle spread position and she was blindfolded. Even though her eyes werent showing, her cheeks glistened with tears. And there carved in her stomach were two little words that made me want to puke. "Come back" the blood ran down the side of her stomach.

He found me.

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Sorry for taking a long time to update, again! Hope this was decently intense. Update soon