Tonight for dinner they revisited the ghost of Jungkook's past, the same meal he had at the start of this week of hell. Omelette rice. He was already feeling incredibly sick and honestly he was still hurt by what had happened yesterday. Thanks to Yoongi though he won't have any scaring and it has actually started to heal up well. He was now sat between him and Namjoon. Min Jun's mother and I only did introductions yesterday as there was no time before. I learned that her name was Min Ha Na, she had noticed that things between me and my friends have slowly started decreasing since Junnie arrived. She apologised to me about it but all I could think to do was reassure her that it's not as bad as it appears... Even though I'm hurting more and more everyday on the inside.
Pushing the thoughts aside he turned his attention back to what was sat before him on his plate. Just like before he could feel the attention was drawn to him and his unmoving fork, he knew that he wouldn't be able to stomach the food on the plate but he also knew that if he didn't eat it then he would get yelled at by his Hyung's. He could feel Yoongi glancing down at the plate and then at the Maknae and he mistook his intentions as a sign to eat rather than worry. Jungkook picked up the fork and thought that he had better just get it over with, he took big pieces of the food and ate it quickly. He didn't bother to savour the flavour as he knew that he wouldn't keep it down long anyway, so he hurried and swallowed it quickly before slamming down his fork and pushing back his chair. "I'm done. Thank you for the meal. I'm going to bed." He ran throwing his hand over his mouth and his other to his stomach, running as fast as he could.
He threw himself down onto his knees in front of the toilet, unable to keep the bile from rising in his throat, after he had clutched the toilet he couldn't hold it back anymore, he begun vomiting thickly. Everything hurt and his lack of food and the fact he can't keep food down didn't help. He threw up for a few minutes but it seemed like MUCH longer before he felt that frightening tightening of his throat. He grabbed his pills from the counter and shakily opened the bottle. spilling the pills all over the floor he managed to grab one and push it into his mouth. Once Jungkook had settled down and felt safe again he looked down at the pills and started to cry. You're weak Jeon Jungkook, you can't do anything right and you're Hyung's don't even care about you. The tears slid down his cheeks as he gathered handfuls of the pills and dropped them back into his container, sliding his sleeve along his eyes and nose he sniffled and recapped the bottle popping it back onto the counter. Jungkook rolled onto his butt sitting back against the sink and hugging his knees, he couldn't take it anymore. Jungkook pulled out his phone and typed a quick message before going into his room and grabbing his bag.
Running down stairs, still crying with puffy red eyes, Jungkook ran past his Hyung's who were back to coddling the toddler, ignoring Namjoon and Yoongi's yells and running out the door. He ran as fast as he could down the street, tears streaming. It doesn't matter what people think, this is the second time I've ran down the street looking foolish. It doesn't matter anymore. I don't matter anymore! Finally Jungkook reached his destination and he knocked on the door in front of him. The door opened and Jungkook looked up, hot tears streaming as he happily saw the face of 1 of his best friends, Bambam.
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Bambam's POV
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Sitting in the living room with his group Bambam laughed at the hilarious faces Jackson was making at him when he heard a knock on the door. He knew it was Jungkook as he had just received a messaged, and informed the others, that he would be coming over. They all loved Jungkook so it was never a problem and they were all happy when the Maknae of BTS came over to visit them, however Jungkook had only sent the message a few minutes ago... How had he gotten here so fast? Bambam went to the door, maybe he was already nearby and just wanted to message before showing up unannounced. Bambam smiled at the thought and opened the door, his smiling dropping when he see's Jungkook panting and crying before him. "Hyung..." Jungkook cries and throws his arms around Bambam knocking him slightly off guard but putting his hand on the small of his back worried. He could hear the others come over to them but he kept his full attention on Jungkook bringing him inside as they sat him down. Bambam felt anger rising in him, he wanted to get whoever had hurt his best friend, looking over at Jackson he saw the same look in his eyes, they both wanted the same thing.
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Jungkook's POV
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Looking up I see all of the Got7 members looking at me worried, JB runs in with a glass of water, handing it to me so I can drink it to calm down. When I was calm enough I looked up again and hiccupped before gripping my sleeves. "S-sorry that I've come over l-looking like this..." Jungkook wiped under his nose and sniffled lightly "Kookie what happened.." Jackson spoke softly and Jungkook couldn't help but bite his lip before he finally spilled everything that happened over the last few days. At first there was silence... They don't believe me... They think I'm making it up... Jungkook felt like he'd cry again before finally Bambam spoke "THOSE BASTARDS!" he punched the wall and Jungkook jumped, slightly shocked and confused as to why Bambam was reacting this way. "How DARE they do that to our Kookie!" Jungkook looked shocked and then felt very touched by his best friends defence, Jackson had to hold him back because he was adamant to going over to the BTS dorm to "teach them a lesson" which Jungkook couldn't help but chuckle about. After they had finally calmed down Jackson, Bambam and Jungkook all went up to Bambam and Jackson's shared room closing the door behind them.
They started to do their homework, trying to take the youngers mind off of things and keep themselves calm. After a while Jungkook decided he'd ask them about something that he'd been thinking about for a while. "Guys..." they all immediately turned to Jungkook smiling and waiting for him to continue "What do people do when they are depressed? Its a question on my paper..." pulling the sheet out of plain view Jungkook looked over at them, they looked between each other thinking about what the answer could be. "Well..." Jackson was the one that finally spoke up "when most people are depressed they usually relieve the stress by self-harming... but I doubt that they'd put that as a homework question... Maybe it's... stress relieve?" Shrugging the others carried on while Jungkook stared into the distance, self-harm...
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Little Brother~
FanfictionA new programme that BTS have to work on begins to make Jeon Jungkook feel under valued by his Hyungs. Will bunny be able to get his Hyungs back?
