Orbs

9.

I've Loved, and I've lost

Mia

I sat at the window looking down at the car park below watching people taking their loved ones out of the hospital and smiling. I hated seeing those smiles. The sun was in my face and it was warm but I was cold everyone had visited me today giving me hugs and flowers but none of it matter I was only waiting for Quinn.

"Jesus!" I muttered as Luca put his hands on my shoulders breaking me from this trance I was in.

"She's awake," He said silently with remorse his eyes told me something bad and I couldn't stop looking at them the world was spinning and he kept me grounded.

He trailed in front of me showing me where she was I reached out to hold his hand as we walked the halls, He tensed his hand up around mine stopping my hand from shaking. As we approached the room I held him back just for a second he swung around our hands still intertwined,

I closed my eyes breathing slowly but my chest felt heavy.

"Lu, I don't think I'm ready,"

He cupped my face letting go off my hand.

"Your going to be okay, I'll be right here with you,"

He smirked at me his hands where warm but slightly moist. His sexy accent melt through my ears like butter, oh how he made everything seem ok. I stepped into the room it was dark and musky and the energy was really out of whack, the sounds of IV drips and heart monitors flicked in the room my brain focusing on all these sounds. She looked drowned and bruised. Why did this have to happen to such a sweet girl.

"Mia?"

Her voice was ragged and breathless.

I went to her side Luca bringing over a chair then leaving the room smiling at me and Quinn. Quinn stretched her hand out to me I took it in mine and tried not to cry.

"I don't know how Im going to go on without you," I say looking down at my lap not wanting to see her face she looked so done yet accepting.

"Mia, you are strong and I need you to be especially with that sexy italian boy," That made me chuckle but still made me cry, "He's good ain't he,"

"Hopefully," She said only just getting it out her orbs rolling two and fro she wasn't in a good place at all. Her hands began to untighten from mine. Something was wrong.

"Mi, I need to tell you something," She said leaning up to me blue strands falling on her face and covering her bruises and freckles,

"I've loved you since-," her voice trailed off and beeping began happening her hand dropping to the side of the bed and her body staying lifeless, I ran to the hall screaming for doctors nurses anybody I could feel myself mindlessly spinning as her heart monitor only had a dead straight line. The doctors ran in pushing on her chest to get her to start breathing Luca ran to me holding me in the corner as I watched on sobbing. Holding my hand up to my face preventing myself from screaming, the doctors stepped back wiping the sweat of their brows and turning around gasping at their failures. Me and Luca stood there looking on at the chaos and the quiet.

"She was about to tell me something,"

I say my lips quivering as I look up at Luca.

"It's okay,"

He says holding me to his chest tightening his hold on me slightly waving as I sob into his chest wetting his shirt with my tears.

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The doctors told Quinns parents how her heart sustains too much injury during the crash and had become to weak and surgery didn't help and nothing was so they just let her be, there was nothing they could have done but it was still heartbreaking to know she had to endure so much pain and all because I couldn't stand up for myself in front of Blake and that I didn't tell her in the first place, that why we pulled over.

I couldn't handle myself.

The thoughts kept rushing in.

I ran away from Lucas hold down into the elevator seeing his face become smaller and smaller as the doors closed. He didn't run he let me be.

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