Ok, so first off, hi, because I haven't posted in literally forever, and I just want to say thank you all so much because a few months ago I hit 100 followers, and I know that's not really big compared to other people's 3754357 million or whatever follows, but it's pretty big for me. Thank you all who followed me so much 🤗
Now, before you all think I'm crazy, let me explain this chapter. I have a weird, deep, emotional and physical attachment to the dark. Again, let me explain before you exit here and unfollow me because you think I'm weird lol.
Not many people know this, but I have pretty bad social anxiety, to the point where I literally don't talk to anyone except my parents and less than 5 close friends without being too anxious, and I get these mini-panic attacks a lot. It gets hard for me to breathe, I get tunnel vision, and I have to immediately get myself away from the situation so I can calm down. Often this means listening to music, by myself, in the dark, and being a huge introvert doesn't help either, so I've kind of become a recluse to my room.
For me, being in the dark is way less stimulating and stressful than being in the light. Therefore I have a sense of relaxation and peace whenever I'm in the dark. This actually describes me so well:
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Then there's the emotional aspect which is the part of me that's sad, emo, and the other mental affects of my anxiety. All the over-thinking, negative thoughts, regrets, and other bad stuff.
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