How do I let someone go I've learned to love?
How do I loose all those praises stored up in my head for only him?
How do I get over all those memories of the good times, when even the bad times are hard to forget?
How do I learn to move on from those romantic nights in bed, cuddled into your arms, sleeping peacefully, skin on skin.
How do I learn not to love, when learning to love was already hard enough?
How do you live with yourself knowing you used me to your hearts content and when you thought you'd had you fill you just left me there crying on the side walk, mourning the loss of comfort and safety?
How much longer is this going to take, because this loss is like a tidal wave and the longer I try to hold onto it, the more deadly it becomes for me when I fall.
How do you pretend like you don't know me when in actual fact you know me better than my own parents. You know every inch of my body because, on those lonely nights that you ended up coming around on, you would hold me and caress my curves holding me tightly yet softly whispering sweet nothings into my ears driving me to a point of no return.
When you hold her now do you think of me, of those nights that like to play reruns in my head, the nights I'll never forget huddled up on your bed or when you'd rest you head on mine because I was really short on you. How about those days we'd just spend cuddled into the couch watching movies and talking about anything and everything. Of the days you helped me babysit and we were the most at peace with each other. When you held her, my baby sister, she would stare up at you and you both were a sight to behold, a beauty to be kept. But all these moments, all these little simple things, have you forgotten them? Have you forgotten me? Have you forgotten everything we shared?
I think its gone now those feelings that were once there I now realise that you never loved me, you loved what I could offer you, you loved my body. You loved the attention, you loved the love my family gave you but...
Don't ever say you loved me because you didn't and I know that now.
