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by aesthexing
by aesthexing
                                    
                                              she gazes at the spaghetti she boiled, which is a portion for two. she sighs, wiping the tear away as she chuckles to herself. why is she even crying? she's the one who told him to go. she sighs for the second time, wondering what to do for the food. guess that she would be eating alone again.
                          her hand trembled as it goes to grab the pot, she realizes that she's crying. her knees can't hold it anymore, she drop to the floor. sobbing. all those tears that she held when he left her, all those tears that she had when he showed up at her door step, she let it all out.
                          "f*ck this!" she heard the door of her apartment being slammed open, a voice that really familiar to her cursed loudly. the figure goes closer and closer to her, the wetness in her eyes made it blurry to her. the figure's steps slowed down as he reaches her. he drops to his knees, his hands trembling.

                          brendon. he came back.
                          "s-sarah..." he said, as if the sight surprised him and hurt him at the same time. and it does. the fact that she cried because of him twisted something in him. "i'm sorry, baby, i'm sorry." he embrace her in a tight embrace, he notices himself shaking. "i'm sorry."
                          something wet drop on her head, and she realizes that its his tears. he's crying. 
                          "why are you here?" she chokes out, trying to keep her voice stable.
                          "because you are here."
                          "go home, brendon." his heart twitch when he heard her calling his name.
                          "i am home, sarah." he kissed the top of her head, the tears won't stop rolling down despite him trying to hold them back.
                          "you left me for her brendon, so i am not home. she is." she managed to let out. "you even cried for her, brendon! you showed up in midnight at me yet you were crying for her." she sobs, "i am not your home, brendon."
                          he notices what she's saying, he embrace her even tighter. "i was crying for you, sarah. that night, i'm crying because i missed you that much! i couldn't even sleep when i heard you cry to your sleep!"
                          "i'm an idiot for loving you, a complete f*cked up guy, for leaving a girl like you. i was going for other girl when i have the best one. slap me, punch me, but let me love you again. i've always had."
                          "i love you, i never stopped."