Distance Between (Connor Franta fanfic)

Forgive and Forget?

Emily's POV

As soon as I get home of course Jenn starts bombarding me with questions. "Where were you?"

"Well wouldn't you like to know?" I try to walk past her, but she stops me.

"Yes I do want to know, you didn't tell me you were going anywhere."

"Well here I am." Now I finally walk past her.

"You're going to have to let this go eventually." I decide to ignore her. I can't just let this go, I told her a huge secret, and she just had to tell one of her stupid YouTube friends. Why would he even want to know? Ricky's better off without knowing it. He's better off without knowing me. Everyone's better off without me. I don't even know why I moved to fucking California. It was a stupid decision moving across the country.

My dad is too clueless to ever even find me. I could've just gone to some motel. I'm running out of money, I don't even know how I'm going to earn any. I should just go back. I'll go back to being the desk lady at my acting class, and that way I'll get around. I should just go back. While i was thinking about packing I hear a knock at the door. "Don't come in." I simply tell Jenn.

"It's Andrea." Before I have a chance to say anything, she's already coming in and sits on the bed next to me. "So what's up?" She doesn't really say it with much enthusiasm, but I just don't get why she would be asking me such a rhetorical question.

"Jenn sent you here, didn't she." I say rudely. I'm obviously not mad at her, just still annoyed at Jenn for what she did. She probably even told her, too.

"Look, Jenn sent me here to see if you're okay. She's worried about you. And she knew that if she tried to talk to you, you would just shut her down."

As comforting as Andrea's voice sounds, nothing will change how upset I am with her. "So you're just some spy checking up on me? She told you didn't she? You don't know how mad I am with her. The whole world might as well my story, right?"

"Okay, what? She didn't tell me anything, I  just wanted to check up on you and see if you were still mad at her, I swear." She put her hands up in defense.

Guess my little speech was for nothing. "oh..I'm really sorry for yelling at you like that, I didn't mean it, it just... came out of me I guess."

"It's okay. We all keep our emotions bottled up one time or another. Soon the bottle becomes full, and all you need is to just let it out."

"Thanks Andrea, really. But I don't know what to do now. A second ago I was thinking about packing to go back to Georgia, and now I don't know."

"What? No. You have to stay here. Just give everyone a second chance, they all deserve one. I mean, this isn't the first time Jenn screwed up, is it?" She brought up a good point.

"Now that I think about, this is like the first momentous thing I guess, that Jenn screwed up in. Thanks Andrea."

"No need to thank me, I'm just a room mate."

"Would you except cash?"

"Do I hear free money?"

I hit her arm,"I was just kidding, get out here!" I joke.

"Hug it out?" I don't reply, just give a big hug. This is what I needed I guess, a pep talk. I always easily forgive people. I know I haven't forgiven Jenn yet, but hugging Andrea is practically a promise. This is what I hate. I easily can forgive people, it's blessing and a curse, because giving people second chances is the right thing to do, but there's also a point when you need to stop forgiving people if all they do is keep doing the wrong thing. I don't even know if I'm ready to forgive Jenn.