Senior year

Chapter 5: This is it

I lay in bed thinking about what I should do. People always say that they can still be 'friends' after they breakup, obviously it didn't work out like that between my parents. If I break up with Harry, I'll be able to focus more on school. After all we are graduating in two months and we'll be a few states away. If I do break up with him, I want to still talk to him because he's the most amazing, sensitive, sweet, caring guy I've ever met. If I don't we will be in a long distance relationship and I don't know if I can handle that. We've been dating for four months now, and he's been the best boyfriend I could ask for.

I want to stay in our relationship because I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he will find someone better and prettier than me. I can't stand to see him with another girl. Now I know how my mom feels about my dad's girlfriend Veronica. Over all my mom still cares about my dad.

I drift off to sleep thinking about my dad and Harry.

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My alarm clock goes off around 6 o'clock. I get dressed in my cut off shorts and pink colored shirt. Put my hair into a braid and I'm out the door. When I get to school I see Harry's bestfriend Niall sitting on the steps with his head propped between his hands. "Niall, you okay?" I ask as I sit down beside him. "Not really. Harry didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what?" I can feel my heart racing with anticipation

"He.." He stops himself

"He what Niall?" My voice almost demanding an answer

"He left"

"What?" I'm trying to put the puzzle pieces together.

"Where did he go?"

"I don't know. He just called and said he's going" Niall is tearing up, I know something's not right. I stand up and get my phone out of my pocket. With every ring my bones tense.

"Hello?" Harry finally says

"Hey, you okay?" I feel relieved

"Yeah. I need to talk to you meet me at the park in Gordonsville."

"But that's a city away and I can't skip school"

"Do it for me. This is important."

I go to explain to Niall and he comes with me. I'm probably shaking, I'm nervous. Then a thought hits me. His step dad lives near that park. His mom. She's been really sick. We can't get there soon enough. I tell Niall to stay in the car and I walk over to Harry who is slouched over at a old picnic table. "Harry." He turns around and hugs me tight. "I love you, so much" he says "I love you, too" I say back.

"What's going on?" I ask

"My mom called me this morning. My step dad had to have emergency surgery and they had to transport him to a hospital in New Hampshire."

"And?"

"And" he adds "I'm moving there."

"What?" I ask shocked for more to say

"He has to be there under certain care. Until you know, he goes"

"When will you come back?"

"I don't think I will"

The words break me. Tears flow out of my eyes before I can stop them. I know the answer to my question. I can't let him go.