Your Guardian Angel (Destiel) COMPLETED

Chapter Eighteen

"I still don't understand the point of her music!" Castiel complained as I forced him to listen to Otep, the "creepy chick" as everyone else called her, for the fourth time this week.

Cas and Nikka had been living with us for three months now and everything was going great. Last weekend Cas officially got emancipated and became Nikka's legal guardian so now their parents couldn't randomly say we kidnapped them.

"The point is the same as all the music I listen to: to be individual and show that not everyone fits the mold of our fucked up society."

"Well, why does she have to be so anti-religion? I mean, 'Jesus needs his prescriptions filled. Buddha's using too many pills. Allah promises endless thrills in volatile bottles marked religion kills'? It isn't going to make her well liked."

I sighed. He just wasn't getting the point of rock music in general. "It's not a necessity for most rock musicians to be 'well-liked' they just want to put out their feelings and if some people feel the same, great! an if some don't, that's great as well."

"I don't think I like this one. I can handle most of your music but anyone who sings about eating children and menocide is not on my favorite artists lists." he laid on my stomach and listened with me.

To all you weak MC's.

To all you hardcore wannabe's.

If you step into the ring be prepared to swing... what!

"I kinda like this song, though. It has a nice beat." he nodded along to the music.

I got up and changed the CD.

Jimmy's in the back with a pocket of high

If you listen close

You can hear him cry

Oh, Lord, heaven knows

We belong way down below

Sing it

Oh, Lord, heaven knows

We belong way down below

Way down below, way down below

"Can you change it?" Castiel asked in a very quiet voice. "I like the song and all I just don't want to hear how we belong in hell."

I just nodded and changed the CD again.

I want to be a good man

I want to see God

I want to be faithful

But I know that I'm not

I want to be a good man

I want to do right

I don't want to be a criminal

For the rest of my life

"This good?" I turned back to him and waited for an answer before laying back with him.

He nodded and when I wrapped him back in my arms he turned to face me. "May I ask a question?" I nodded so he continued. "Why don't you believe in God? I mean, I know you have a tough life and it would really be easier if you had somewhere to place some of the stress."

"God wouldn't have taken my mom." I said coldly.

"Well, look at you! would you have taken such great care of Sam if your mom were still around? you said you promised yourself to always he was okay the day your mom passed. Would you really I've up your relationship with him? there is a reason for everything."

"I guess your right... i don't know, babe, I just have trouble believing in things I can't see." I Shrugged and pulled him closer. "Can we not talk about it anymore?"

He nodded, "I actually have something for you." he reached over to the corner of my room where I kept our guitars and grabbed his acoustic. He started to play.

"When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart

Please don't throw that away

Cuz I'm here for you

Please don't walk away and

Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven"

I pressed my lips softly to his when he set his guitar down. "I love you so much, Castiel. Like you'll never believe how much you mean to me. You are like my guardian angel, you saved me."

"No, Dean, you saved me. I can't imagine where I'd be if you hadn't invited me over that first day. Well, I actually can but I'd be under ground." I asked what he meant. "I planned on killing myself that night. I couldn't handle going to a new school and my parents hating gays and constantly having to hide that from everyone finally got to me. So I planned on ending it. But you invited me over and I herd you and Nik talking about me. It gave me hope. Not just the hope that maybe you had a thing for me but hope that there could be better, happier days. So you saved me, Dean."

I wrapped my arms tight around him and whispered "i love you" over and over to him. And he whispered it back. And I just wanted to live in this moment forever. A wave of happiness rushed over me when I realized that I could and probably would spend the rest of my life like this. Sure, we would have our arguements, every couple did, but we would get through this and live a perfect little fairy tale.

And I couldn't ask for anything more...

Except for a boyfriend who could make good pie because Cas sucked at that. But we'll definitely work on it.

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A/N: so that's it guys! the last real chapter. Next chapter will be an epilogue (which I am super excited for and hope you guys like it as much as I do) an will be a little longer than my other chapters. After that I will post a list of the songs used throughout the story and which chapter they are in because I didn't always state it. And in a couple months I might add another chapter as a little Q&A thing so ask all the questions you have in the comments or message me them if you prefer. I had such a great time writing it and I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did! thanks I love you!

-Sammi