Rescue Me

Liquid Confidence

A few days later..

"Why do I even put up with you, you stupid bitch" Josh screamed.

Another day, another argument in this household.We been arguing like this now for hours. Its a never ending cycle wake up argue go to work come back argue go to sleep. I wonder if he remembered its was our 5 year anniversary , I guess not hes doesn't care enough anymore. The first time we met I was 15 and he was 16 years old , he was the one that every girl wanted but he didn't want them he wanted me  it was the best feeling ever, I swear I could walk on cloud nine , take a bullet and still be happy to die , i could die in his arms but he wouldn't do the same for me.

The first day we ever met was at school, he was in miss smiths maths class I walked in to get my bag as I left it in their, and there was josh sat where my bag was I swear walking over to him was a dream , he smiled at me in his cheeky smile that makes fall in love all over again.He handed me my bag and I swear there was sparks going up my arms making me go weak at the knees.After class had finished he chased me and asked for my name, when he asked my name I sort of shouted it out and screamed in his face, i thought I blew it but he just laughed and said "I like you , we should hang some time "  I nearly cried my eyes out .

*Flashback*...The first date

"Looking in to your eyes i swear i can see my world , you're my world I never wanted to lose you" said   josh. 

On the first date he took me for a walk on the beach and laid me down to count the stars told me story's about each one, he made everything so magical he could talk to me for hours and i would not   get bored.Hes the type that all the other girls want.The first few months was amazing we never argued it was perfect he rang me just to say I love you all the time, he would walk me to school and walk me back ,now look at us all we ever do is argue.

Few hours later 

"I love you baby you do know your my girl forever and ever" said Josh in a baby voice 

You see he can be horrible one minute but the next so caring you wouldn't believe, he has he good side and his bad side.When he is with his friends hes the best guy in the world when where alone its like world war three, plates smashing , spit flying and words of regret falling about. I swear I get so close to leaving him but then he begs and pleads for me to stay he grabs me and sings stay with me baby stay with me your all need to get by.

"Why should I  stay with you, your everything I don't need I could be with better people but im stuck with jerks like you tell me Josh why should i stay" screaming this household down 

"Cassie please dint leave please I will change I promise its me and you together forever I know you cant do better than me you need me to survive this world " 

After crying my eyes out on his shoulder and telling him he needs to change, I know he wont but deep inside but some thing he keeps telling me he will .

Beep, Beep 

"Who the fuck is that texting you its 2 :00 in the morning turn your phone and get back to sleep"

Its was max 

Hey Cassie , how are you I know its late but I haven't stop thinking about since the gig I cant sleep ii cant eat i cant even work you keep distracting me , Cassie i know your feel the same way too but you wont tell me because of josh , but you should leave that dickhead he treats you like shit and you deserve more than that , you're truly amazing your smile lights up my world and when ever I think about i just blush , please let me know if you think about that night just a text back , would do , lets me up , Love Max's

*Shit*