A Better Love The Sequel

Things Ain't the Same

January

I was sitting on my white leather sofa looking out the window with a glass of whine in my hand. I was sitting listening to my cousin and sisters rant and rave about me needing to bring my ass back to Atlanta. They were all at Alicia's house and they had me on speaker.

"January you ain't taking this shit seriously. Que had some girl all on his dick." Alicia said.

"Yeah Jan Alicia is right. It is something about that girl that don't add up. I know you still love Que  and he ain't stopped loving, so  you need to stop fronting." Ray said and Nesha was in agreement.

"Look I told Que in that letter that he deserved better and maybe she is better."

"Ugh, January are you fucking serious right now? This bitch probably done hopped on his dick ten different ways by now."

I really didn't want to hear that but it was what it was. I mean why should he hold out for me and put his life on hold. Hell I pretty much told him he could do whatever.

"Alicia what the fuck do you want me to do?! I mean I am here and he is there. What you expect me to come back and do what, say don't fuck no other bitches."

"YES!" They all said loudly.

"Man y'all crazy for real."

"Seriously tho things ain't the same. We all miss you and we definitely miss seeing you and Que together." Ray said.

I really felt bad but I was trying not to let my feelings show because once I did they would be on a plane dragging me back. God knows I miss Que and I love him until it feels like I can't breathe. I looked down and rubbed the tattoo that I had over my heart. After my first week out here I got a tattoo with heart that had the initials R.J.B.

"I miss y'all too and you know I love you all. I just need to get myself together."

"So when can we come and visit? Nesha asked.

"Umm honestly whenever you want to. Oh and by the way I am proud of you guys for opening up your boutique. I definitely gotta come and check that out."

"Thanks. We are thinking about do a small fashion show and it would be nice if we could have our sister on board doing the makeup."

"Hmm sounds like you got a makeup artist. Just let me know when and I promise I am there."

We talked for a few more minutes and I congratulated Alicia on her new modeling contract. We then said our goodbyes. Once we got off the phone I started thinking about all that they had told me about the chick that was all over Que. I have to admit that I don't like that one bit, but really what can I say? I finished drinking my whine and decided that I would take a swim. I got up and changed into my white two piece Christian Dior swimsuit. I put my hair in a bun grabbed a towel and my shades heading to the pool in my apartment complex. I decided that I would lounge a bit by the pool before actually taking a swim.

I laid back on one of the lounge chairs with my shades over my eyes relaxing. All of a sudden I felt like someone was watching me. I looked to my left  in the other lounge chair and there was a guy sitting there looking at my entire body. It was as if he was trying to see what part of my body he liked the best. I started to fill uncomfortable as well as irritated because this fool was staring not saying anything.

I rose sliding my shades on top of my head. I looked over at him and my breath caught in my throat because he was fine as hell. He wasn't Jacquees at all but he was fine. He was a deep caramel complexion he had the most intense hazel eyes and he had a nice toned body.

"Is there a reason you are watching me?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.

He flashed a sexy smile revealing a pair of deep dimples.

"Yeah there is. I am admiring you beauty."

I looked at this nigga and rolled my damn eyes.

"So ma' you gone tell me your name?"

"It depends, are you a stalker?"

He laughed intently while rubbing his chin as if he was in thought about something.

"How about I tell you my name and then you tell me yours."

I nodded in agreement.

"I am Zy'metris but everybody calls me Zy.

"You have an interesting name, but my name is Star." I said giving him my middle name.

"Star I like that. It fits you."

I smiled and rose from my lounge chair. I think that swimming is definitely out of the question now. I grabbed my towel. I looked at him and said, "It was nice meeting you Zy, but I think I am going to head back up. Have a nice evening."

Before I got out of sight he yelled out to me.

"Hopefully we will meet again Star."

"Maybe we will and maybe we won't." With that I left him sitting there staring after me.

Jacquees

Last night I had shawty with me and I didn't take her to my crib because I felt like I would be disrespecting January. We went to the Marriott. Once we got up to the room Tamara was all over me. At first I was feeling it but I saw January's face and I knew I couldn't fuck Tamara. I could see the disappointment in her eyes but I am so in love with January. She called her friend and told her friend to pick her up from the hotel. I offered to take her home but she declined. Something has really got to give because January has got a hold on me that no female has ever had. I am laying here in my bed looking at all the pictures that January I took while she was here. I can't help but think that we were at one point so happy and in love. I was so tempted to text her but I knew it would be a lost cause because she didn't respond then and I know she won't respond now. I wonder has she met anybody because January is beautiful as hell and I know how niggas are. I finally lost the battle and decided to text her.

Jacquees: I tried to talk myself out of texting you but I lost the battle. I hope that all is good with you and I want nothing but the best for you. No matter what January I will always love you.

I got up and laid my phone down going downstairs to make me a sandwich. I made me a turkey and cheese sandwich and grabbed a small bag of cool ranch Doritos. I made a cup of apple juice and headed back upstairs. I was eating my sandwich and my phone went off indicating that I had an incoming text. I grabbed my phone from the nightstand. When I opened it I was surprised that I had a text from January. My heart was beating a mile a minute.

JanuaryBeauty: I am doing good. I hope that everything is good with you and I want the best for you as well. Jacquees I love you and I always will.

My heart was smiling just as I was smiling because it felt good to actually communicate with her.

Jacquees: You know things ain't the same since you been gone. When you left you took my heart with you. I just wish things could go back to the way that they were between us.

JanuaryBeauty: I know. I have to admit that things are not the same and trust and believe you have my heart there with you. I wish things could go back too. Know that I love you and I want you to be happy. Take care. I love you Jacquees.

It seems like when I get ahead a little things go back farther than they should. Well I can't complain because she did respond but damn I want more, hell I need more. This shit is so damn frustrating. Right now I am gone let her have her moment but this shit is far from over. So she better be ready. I am just waiting on the right time to make my move and when I do she ain't gone know what hit her. January Star Salters better watch out because a nigga on a mission to get his girl back....