It Doesn't Matter Who I Am (Hwarang: Han Sung x Reader x Ji Dwi)

~Chapter 9~ Lies

"You keep on looking at Ah Ro-noona. What's wrong?" Han Sung asks me as I watched Ah Ro drop her flowers.

"She found out..." I mumble then I ran from Han Sung. 

He stayed where we were and I grabbed her arm and yanked her into my embrace. I held her tightly as she sobbed into my wrapped chest. She was trembling so violently in my arms of sadness and anger. I didn't blame her, I saw our brother die.

"Why did he die and you survived?!" Ah Ro yells and I turned her head back into my chest.

I gave Dog-Bird the coldest glare I've ever given anyone in the world. From the beginning, I never liked him. He allowed my brother to suffer and be murdered right in front of his youngest sister. Now, I no longer need to hold back.

"You..." I call out and Dog-Bird looks at me. Our eyes met.

He looks at me in fear as I grit my teeth to the point that they could break.

"Stay away from my damn family and don't use my orabeoni's name anymore!" I shout then I let go of Ah Ro then walk up to Dog-Bird. "Or I'll kill you." I threaten.

Ah Ro runs off and I grab Dog-Bird's wrist. My nails dug into his wrist to the point that blood began to draw. I was more than pissed off, all I told him to do was make sure Ah Ro stayed happy, but he doesn't know how to do a damn thing. Of course since he's a Cheonin.

"Don't think I'll hold back anymore. I no longer have anything to hold back." I warn then I banged my shoulder against his as I walked away.

I followed Ah Ro out of the school until I finally caught up to her. I grabbed her arm and she looked at me with many tears rolling down her cheeks. I drag her to a river and we both sat down on the side. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and she cried into my chest. 

I felt like a terrible person for lying to her this whole time. I knew who he was this whole time, but I lied to her just to keep her happy. I haven't seen her cry this much since the day of mother's death. Even though I was only a baby then, I remember seeing how many tears her eyes had produced that day.

"I'm so sorry..." I apologize then she backs away from me.

"You knew this, didn't you?" She asks me and I stayed silent.

I bit my lip to the point I could almost taste blood. She then forces me to look at her and I could tell she was angry now, the fire burning in her eyes showed it completely.

"Why did you never tell me?!" She yells. "How come you knew and I didn't?!" She asks me then she shook me hard. "Answer me!" She demands as I began to slightly push her away.

"Yah, I don't want to talk about it right now." I tell her, but she held onto me tighter.

"No! I'm not going to let you get away with this any longer! You've been keeping secrets from me for so long to the point that we've lost our trust in each other! I tell you every damn thing that happens to me, and you rarely tell me crap because you're too absorbed in becoming a Hwarang!" She yells and I stayed content with myself. "So, why?! Why do you keep your mouth shut around me all the time now?!" She asks.

I continued to let her anger out because it's been forever since the last time she's done this. Every time that I've consoled her, she's always crying or confused. This time, she's infuriated.

"You're always the one protecting me and keeping me happy, when I'm supposed to protect you! I'm your older sister while you're my younger sister, not the other way around! It's never been that way with anyone else! You've sold your body to older men just for me, when you shouldn't do that for me!" Ah Ro continues then she grabs my arms tighter. "Why have you been quiet this whole time?! At least say something-" She starts yelling.