peculiar love

his response

《Enoch's Pov》
Olive seemed distracted today and when she handed me the scissors, her hands touched mine. I did not know why but for the few seconds before she removed her hands she was blushing. Even though there is a rumor about Olive liking me, i never really believed it until i saw her blush just now. No way! Why would you even think that she likes you? Olive is so cheerful and nice unlike me why on earth would she fall for a guy like me? I shook my head trying to get rid of the thought that she might like me.

"Hey Enoch can i ask you something?" Olive said breaking the silence.
"What?" I replied trying to sound annoyed.
"Um do you still like Emma?" Olive asked shyly after a moment of silence.
"Why do you still ask when you know the answer already" i replied coldly.
The room was silent there was not respond from Olive.
"I'll go make some tea for you" Olive said sounding upset and left the room quickly as if she was trying to get away from me.
Does she actually like you? I asked myself.

《Olive's Pov》
I finally muster my courage to ask him if he still likes Emma. I did not know why i still asked him when i knew the answer. He loves Emma, olive! Get that in your head, he will never like you!

Why would he? Why.
Im nothing compared to Emma.
Im just a dumb girl waiting for her love to like her back which clearly was not happening.
Him not realizing that i love him made me feel even more stupid.
I was so frustrated at myself.
Why did i like him in the first place?
What rights do you have to love him?
But what choice do i have? My heart asked me.
How could i not love him? My heart asked again. I did not have a answer to that which is why a girl like me could never stop liking a guy like him despite how hard i tried which made me even more frustrated at myself. And all i could do was love him secretly which i was fine with and used to.

I need fresh air to help me think clearer.
"I'll go make some tea for you" i said trying to sound less upset because of the response he gave me. I left the room feeling embarrassed. Why would you think his response would be different this time? A tear rolled down my blushing cheeks as i left his room.