peculiar love

giving up

《Olive's Pov》
I was not upset that Emma might like Enoch back but the fact that Enoch likes Emma. Im not saying that Emma does not deserve Enoch's love but that i hang out with him more and i treat him better but why does he still not like me? Its not that its only for a few days it was already a few decades. Enoch new that Emma love abe clearer than anyone but for some reason he still chose to love her just like me. It makes me sad that Enoch has felt the pain i felt i know no one deserves that but sadly the world is not fair there is bound to be someone left out the person who is willing to sacrifice has the kindest heart but will get the most pain in return. When there is joy there is sadness that is love i finally understood that and knew its time for heart to give up. I knew that one day she would be able to look into Enoch's dark brown eyes and see him just as a friend.
Well, since we are just friends i would be okay to help him now. I walked to his room feeling confident but when i knocked the door and heard footsteps getting louder every second, i started sweating and my hands in my gloves were too. It was definitely not because of the heat.
When the door opened, i saw Enoch. He looked shocked which made him even cuter. STOP IT OLIVE i told myself. I assisted him as normal and acted casual. Until he said...

"Olive?" He said all of the sudden. I was usually the one who start the conversation and i was a little happy that he was the one who did it.
"Yea?" I replied trying to keep it cool when i was freaking out.
"I'm going to confess to Emma later" he said like it was nothing.
And that was it. My heart. My damn heart. It shattered.
I scolded myself and hated Enoch for the first time. So he still choose Emma in the end huh? Okay then, i give up. Those words came from me.

"Okay." I answered emotionless.
"What did you say?" Enoch asked confused that i did not have any other comments.
"I said okay." I answered loudly sounding very irritated.
That look on Enoch's face when i said that to him. He was so shocked. I was too and honestly anyone who heard that would think they heard wrong. But it was not. That was what i said.
Before Enoch could say anything else Emma walked into his room without knocking and act as if it was hers which made me annoyed. I have never enter Enoch's room without knocking and when Emma did it Enoch did not say anything. I rolled my eyes in front of them and both of them saw it clearly which made that very shock. I had never done that before not to anyone i hated or knew.
"Are you alright Olive?" Emma asked sounding concerned and shocked.
"She's fine." Enoch said with a smile when i was about to answer which made me fuming mad.
"NO I'M NOT!" i yelled at them both and stomped back into my room. Those looks on their faces. I have never seen that before.
I must have been really mad i screamed so loudly that everyone else in the house could hear me. They all went to Enoch's room still wearing their pajamas. I must have woken them up.
Knock knock
"Olive? Olive dear are you fine? Please come out i would like to speak to you privately please." Miss peregrine said softly. I went out crying pathetically while all the other childrens were watching me. I followed miss peregrine into a room.
"Please sit down Olive." She said kindly.
"What is wrong dear? Is anything bothering you?" She continued.
I kept silent.
"Is this about Enoch?"
I looked at her and look down again.
She understood what i meant and held me hands.
"You can speak to me if you like i am always here for you Olive." She said sincerely.
I thanked her and left. Everyone ws looking at me.
"Are you okay Olive?" Claire asked me.
I nodded.
Everyone stared at me not knowing what to say and i just walked away rudely. I lied on my bed crying for another half and hour and finally dozed off hoping i would be able to forget everything.

《Enoch's Pov》
Olive was acting weird again which made me kinda worried. When she came into my room to assist me she kept staring at me. I was used to her staring at me all the time but this time she was looking at me with tears close to falling. I finally told her that i was going to confess to Emma. Okay. That was all she said. I did not expect her to say anything else but her response was a little unexpected. I asked her again because i thought i heard wrongly but then she repeated the same thing in a angrier tone which made me very shock. She was being like me. I was hoping that i would get influenced by her not the other way round. I wanted to ask her how she was but Emma walked in. She probably did not know i saw it but she frowned. I was worried that Emma might see it and thoughr that Olive did not want her here so i smile at her so she would not notice but then Olive rolled her eyes. I did not have to see Emma's expression i knew she was as shocked as i was.

"Are you alright Olive?" She asked.
I knew she was not but i did not want to make Emma worried so i lied.
"She's fine." I said.
"NO IM NOT!" Olive yelled at us and ran to her room leaving me and Emma speechless.
All the childrens woke up and came to my room to check things out. Miss peregrine came eventually and talked to her privately. She came out of the room still crying and only left after answering claire.
I had never seen Olive like this.