BTS Suga : Around the World With You

Yoongi and Maggie's P.O.V

The flight back home was a little awkward. And Maggie has been especially quiet for some reason. There were times that I would catch her staring at me from the corner of my eye. And when I'd turn to her and ask if there is something wrong, she would just shrug and shake her head. We did not talk about the kiss she witnessed. We did not even talk about Lily at all. I relaxed a bit when she fell asleep on my shoulder, Well at least that means she's not angry at me, I thought.

I didn't actually sleep well after that kiss. I just lay in bed the entire time thinking about it-

About how I felt, how I felt when Maggie saw it. I should be thinking about the kiss - dammit that was my first kiss for godsakes. But, all I can think about was Maggie's reaction, it was unreadable. And when I tried to approach her to talk about what she saw, she just turned around and went back inside her room. I lay all morning thinking if she was pissed or what...really why am I even worrying about it? I noticed it was almost 5am, I decided I should really go to sleep since we had to leave by noon. I just resolved and convinced myself there is nothing I should worry about Maggie, it's not like I am entitled to explain to her what had happened. But I know deep down, I felt like I needed to though, to tell her it meant nothing. Pabo! It's not like she's jealous Yoongi, snap out of it. And with that I allowed myself to fall in an uncomfortable sleep.

We landed home safely and I took Maggie back to her house. I remember walking her to her door, she hugged me and said "I really had a lot of fun Yoongi, I'll see you tomorrow."

Well, that was a month ago. I haven't seen her since.

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**Maggie's POV starting from here**

I woke up to my phone ringing endlessly. I opened one eye to see who it was, Yoongi. "What's up?" I answered sleepily.

"Wow, you're still sleeping at this time!While I'm looking like I just rose up from the dead." he complained

I faked laugh. "It's not my fault you chose to work at your Dad's busy office Yoongi."

"Well, I'd rather work than  lay around the house all day."

"Ouch." I seriously wanted to punch him with that comment. "What do you want?" I asked a bit annoyed.

"The guys called and wants to invite us for drinks tonight, I honestly don't want to go but I figured I haven't seen you in a while...sooo?"

"Aren't you swamped at work?" I asked him.

"I am. But I haven't seen the guys for a while. And Taehyung has been calling me nonstop so I can't really say no."

"You go then, they called you. Not me." I answered sleepily while slowly getting up from bed.

"Maggie...." Yoongi paused.

I waited what he was going to say next.

"I miss you, okay? I miss my best friend. I'm sorry if I've been a bit busy to see you lately."

I realized I was holding my breath. I slowly let out a deep sigh and considered what he said for a bit. I was up now,pulling the blinds up from my windows. I squint at the 9 am sun... "Just a bit,eh?" I can feel him smiling on the other line. "Fine. I'll try to squeeze you on my schedule." I joked.

"Don't make me laugh. See you tomorrow, I have to go now." Yoongi said in a hurry. "My Dad's coming..."

And as if on cue, I can hear on the other line Mr.Min's booming voice "No calls during work hours..." I smiled while shaking my head and I hung up.

I dragged myself out of the comforts of my room and head downstairs for coffee. Once I have the freshly brewed cup in my hand, I settled myself on the couch staring at the walls. I've been like this for weeks now. Since that day.

I always find myself spacing out. Thinking about that heart breaking moment. My mom noticed how I've been different and asked me if there's something wrong. I would just always shrug. Honestly, I don't even know what's wrong. Ever since that day, I just feel heavy inside with no clear reason.

I allowed myself to look back again at that moment. For my memories to take me back that night in Phuket.

I wanted to give my phone number to her. She did say she has no social media account, so we'll just have to exchange phone numbers. I head out the room and started walking down the hall. I see Yoongi still talking to her. I hung back a bit, I didn't know why I stopped all of a sudden. I just felt like they were talking about something. I remember feeling a bit jealous. The way Yoongi would look at her. I shook my head feeling silly. I continued walking. Until, I see her take a step forward. I stood frozen on the ground as I watch them kiss. I remember wanting to punch someone. Then, I stopped myself. Because realization hit me, that I had no right to do so. He wasn't mine. And Min Yoongi would never look at me that way. Maybe will never feel the same way I feel towards him. We were just friends. Funny enough, I remember telling myself that a boy and a girl can be friends without being romantically attached to the other. I guess I've been a fool for believing that. Tears formed around my eyes. I hope he didn't notice. I turned around as quicky as I could. Closed the door. Slumped down and curled myself on the floor. Allowing myself to feel the pain. Allowing myself to feel all the emotions I tried so hard to shut down all these years. Allowing the tears to just freely fall. And when I woke up the next day, I felt empty.

I still do.