Usui x Reader (Freshman Year)

You're Crazy!

It was Monday and I had to prepare myself for the worst. I don't know what Usui could be up to. But I just have to stay strong. I walked up the halls as if nothing about me changed. But of course, I was lying about myself. I'm not actually this horrible, I just know that this persona works. But maybe acting this way isn't a good idea. And lying about myself is a really bad idea. I don't know this whole situation is making my head hurt.

I walk around the school, being the "Misaki" Replica. Usui hates it. And I want to be myself. But what if nobody accepts who I am? Does anyone want to see who I really am?

I keep going back and forth with my emotions all over the, damn place. What's wrong with me? Why am I stressing?? What am I afraid of??

I heard a voice call my name. It was a familiar soothing voice. Of course it was Usui.

"Takanashi, are you okay?" Usui said as he pressed his hands upon my forehead. Most likely checking for a fever.

"Usui... I uh... " I couldn't make words. My heart was pounding and I needed to call down. But I didn't want him to remove his hand. So I just decided to be myself.

"I don't feel good at all. I can't stop this headache because all I do is over think". I was honest for once. That's new.

" Takanashi, you're being honest for once. That's a definitely not like you." Usui said while still holding my head in the palm of his hand.

"I am like this" I began "I just don't act like myself remember? I'm just a Misaki replica. I don't really have a purpose if I don't act like her. "

I  was sad. I can admit that. To be honest, for a long time now I've had low self-esteem. I don't really see myself as someone wanted around. So pretending to be Mistake gave me a purpose. But now he knows, I don't really have one anymore. Talk about depressing.

"Takahashi, don't say that. You're really important to everyone at this school. Especially to me." His voice was soft and I could hear slight embarrassment. Or pity even.

"To you, you say. You're crazy. There's not much to care about here". I remove his hand, while I give him a soft smile. " Thank you for dealing with me Usui. But I don't want to bother you anymore."

Usui gives me a look of confusion. He wants to say something but I walk away. I'm hurt, and for some strange reason I feel heart broken. It's weird but that how I am. I'm a softy. And I don't know how to change that.

Heyyyyyyy. Look I want to apologize for not updating in so long. I went into a dark depth of depression and bullshit. And it took so long to get my self confidence back and be able to back to my old hobbies. Don't worry next chapter soon!
Damien❤