Awake. {BTS}

Chapter Six

Everyone had went to bed. Suki went into her room shivering. She was cold from the water. She smiled though it was funny pity Jin broke it up. Her lip quivered. She was so tired though. She lay down curling up into a ball and shivered as she tried to sleep. She thought of the bullies and she frowned but she was far from them now but they had damaged her so much. They were right. She was just a worthless, ugly, stupid, disgusting piece of shit. She carelessly let tears stream down her cheeks. Her body ached now and her breathing became uneven.

She sat up grabbing her chest. Shit. She thought of her brother of her little sister of the possibility of her father being her and she began freaking out. Her chest moving in and out quickly. The tears flooding her cheeks. She couldn't breathe. She coughed badly not even inhaling. Her sobs calmed. She whimpered.

She still couldn't breathe. She slapped her cheek and gasped. She stood up looking at the mirror hanging on the wall. She looked at herself. She leaned closer to the mirror snarling at herself. She mumbled to herself breathlessly. "Kill yourself..." She punched the mirror and it shattered under her control. Her knuckles busted open and blood gushed from them. The shards fell onto the ground and stuck into her skin. She dropped to her knees struggling to breathe again. She looked at the beads of blood dripping down her hand. She opened her hand deliberately the pain shocking to her to the extent she gasped she went off that to get her breathing steady again. It worked. She looked around the room. Anger and pain hitting her.

 A sleepy boy came into her room his eyes widening. "Suki!?" He ran over grabbing her wrists causing her to whimper and push him back roughly. "Don't touch me!" She snarled breathlessly hurting him a little. "What's wrong?" She didn't reply. "What happened your hand? How did I hurt you?" He hesitantly walked closer to her. She shamelessly showed him her wrists with gashes that almost made it look like she was wearing a striped sleeve but that was not the case. They were all cuts. "Suki!" His eyes widened. "Shut up. Don't tell anyone." He pulled her into a hug and he felt her go to push him back but she stopped to his relief. "What's wrong?" She suddenly began shaking and a warm liquid wet his top. She was crying. He sat her down on the bed not breaking the hug. "Shh..." He soothingly ran his fingers through her hair.

She calmed down and her grip on him loosened as if she was falling asleep. "No not yet." He let her go. He opened her closet and took out one of the t-shirts and sweat pants. He handed them to her pointing to the connected bathroom. She stood not looking at him and changed draping her soaked clothes over the bath. As soon as she walked back into the room her vision was covered by a towel which Jungkook gently began to rub adsorbing the water from her wet hair. He led her to the bed and sat her down. He got a tweezers.

"You did this yourself didn't you?" She nodded numbly. He sighed. "Why?" She didn't answer. He sighed. "I'm sorry.." He mumbled a apology before picking the glass from her knuckles. She hadn't opened her eyes but when she did he was in front of her dabbing her lip with a warm cloth. She blushed heavily. He bandaged her hand pulling her into another hug. "Don't. Like ever again." She nodded wrapping her arms around his waist. "Lie down." She did as she was told and he got up. She sat up and looked at him. "I'm really sorry..." He smiled lightly. "For what?" She sighed. "For pushing you and making you take care of me." He sat down crossing his legs in front of her. "You didn't make me do anything." She looked down he lifted her chin lifting her head back up.

"Just don't hurt yourself okay? I'm here. Min-Jee is. All my hyungs. Your friends. So talk to us.." She looked up at him and nodded. "Jungkook...Can we not tell anyone?" He smiled. "Okay." He giggled slightly. She continued to stare at the sheets. "Am I that ugly?" He frowned and her head darted up. "What?" He giggled. "You won't look at me.." He pouted. She smiled weakly. "No your far from ugly. I'm sorry.." He smirked at her. He suddenly went very red as if he had just imagined some thing.

"What's wrong?" Suki leaned forward. "N-Nothing.." Jungkook pushed her head back lightly his blush growing darker. She smirked leaning closer against his hand. "H-Hey.." He attempted to hide his face leaning back more. She giggled and he looked at her. He had barely seen her smile and now she was giggling because of him. Not helping.

With his cheeks at the darkest they could be he decided to mess with her too and grabbed her waist he pinned her down on the bed. She chuckled under him. He didn't hold her wrists instead he held her fore arm. She smiled brightly at him. Her brown doe eyes looking up at him. He giggled. She went to push his hands away. "Nope. I'm stronger." He chuckled happily. "I'll kick your balls." He scurried away from her. "What a threat!" She giggled and yawned. "Are you tired?" She nodded. He smiled. "Then i'll go." She grabbed his wrist and he paused looking at her but she wasn't looking at him. "What's wrong?" She didn't look up. "S-Stay?" He smiled. "Of course. Any reason?" He lay down beside her. "I'm scared.." She admitted quietly. He frowned. "Of what?" She gulped. "Just a lot at home.." He nodded opening his arms which she gladly shuffled into. 

"Thank you Kookie.." He smiled catching his hands in her hair. "No problem Suki.." Suki closed her eyes just listening to his heart thumping against her head. It was so relaxing. She soon heard his small snores and although her mind was racing she somehow fell asleep...