Awake. {BTS}

Chapter Nine

Min jee's p.o.v

Today was the last day in Ireland and we're leaving for Gothenburg, Sweden today that's right we're not going to the capital city but the sencond capital city. We had already packed our luggage. I felt bad for Suki, I really do. As I put on a hoodie and black ripped jeans I got a call so I quickly put on some headphones and walked into a empty room. It was my dad.

"Where the hell are you?"

"I-I'm in Ireland and we're going to sweden."

"How dare you huh? And who exactly is we?"

"Jimin and his friends, Suki is also here."

"So now you're a burden to your own brother huh? Friends? I bet they are boys you slept with just to be able to stay"

I couldn't stop the tears from falling, it hurts no the fact that it was harsh words no, it was the fact that it came from my father that hurted.

"Anyways, when you come back here there will be many things waiting for you and I even planned some thing new, I mean if you can pleasure Jimin's friends then I'm sure you can pleasure mine to, right darling?"

I felt sick. He hanged up after that and I couldn't stop crying and even started to hyperventilate. What did I do so wrong to recieve this? If they can't take care of their own child then why did they get one to begin with? I slowly curled up to a ball sitting in a corner, with my heads on my knees. The room were dark and you couldn't hear anything but my sobs, it hurts, it's suffocating, I feel dead and yet so alive, well that's normal for someone with depression but still you don't know how it feels until you feel it and if you can't feel it then you've never felt it. My legs and arms went numb, I couldn't open my eyes and I couldn't feel my own body neither could I stop hyper ventillating. I heard the boys enter the room, they were talking but it sounded like they were so far away. I slowly opened my eyes and told them to get out. Suki came in and asked why I'm always like this, why I never tell her anything. So I shouted at her telling her that I'm like this and she didn't need to care because it's none of her bussiness. Everyone left excpet Suga. He was about to leave when I held his hoodie. He closed the door and slowly hugged me. We were like that for almost an hour, I was still crying but stopped hyper ventilating. I started to hit my own chest, telling him it hurts. He held my wrist and told me to stop. He told me everything would be fine. I started to tell him my whole life story even the things Jimin didn't know about, I also told him about the call. I thought he would judge me but instead he just hugged me tighter.

"We're going to Sweden you should try enjoy it there okay, I mean since you're born and raised there."

"I will oppa"

Yep, I'm born and raised there but when my parents abused me and the cops heard about it they took me away, I was 13 at that time. When I was 15 they sent me to my parents who had decided to go back to their country which was Korea, they thought my parents have changed, but oh how wrong they were. And since then I 've been abused worst than I ever had been because it's easier to hide from cops in Korea. I decided to sleep for a bit Suga hugged me until I fell asleep, he were going to tell Jimin about the call even thought I didn't want to saying that it was for the best. He were going to tell him while I were asleep and he swore he would save me together with Jimin.