Awake. {BTS}

Chapter Eleven

Min jee's P.o.v

We were now on the airplane. Jimin oppa have been ignoring me since Suga told him what happened. I don't even know why. I was sitting next to Jimin who sat next to suga. 

"Jimin oppa?" He just gave me a small yes as an answer not even looking at me.

"Why are you ignoring me?" 

"Do I always have to talk to you, huh? I have my own life to!" He was raising his voice and it hurts because first of all as I've said before I'm scared of people shouting and he knew it damn well, secondly how could he say that to his own sister?

"S-sorry...I just...nevermind" It came out like a small whisper. He finally turned around to look at me and I wiped the tears I felt on my cheeks. You can't cry not now, not infront of him, you're just going to be a burden.       

"Look, I'm sorry okay? I didn't mean to, I just got angry at the fact that I can't help you and I've been a terrible brother and also that you don't trust me enough to tell me what happened. I love you and you know that don't you? I care about you so much don't forget that yeah?"

"It's okay, you were not a terrible  brother you couldn't do anything and I understand that. I do trust you I really do but I just don't want to be a burden."

"You're not a burden okay? You really aren't" He gave me a hug and a peck on my forehead.

"I love you oppa!"

The plane took off, I slept during the 4 hours, We had to switch flight once in London. I waked up to Jimin shaking me because we were about to land. "The plan is about to land at the airport Landvetter in Gothenburg, Sweden, the weather is 0 C with a bit of snow. We all wish you a good morning and we hope  you use our service again. Your pilot was Martin Anderssen. Thanks for traveling with SAS." When we finally landed we took our lugagge. We went out of the airport. I took a deep breath, Oh, how I missed this air.

"Didn't you miss this oppa, the country we used to live in?" I asked Jimin, he wasn't born here but he lived here with us for some years.

"Ofcourse."

Jackson escorted us to "our" apartment. We all chosed a room but I had to share with Jimin oppa. I wanted to talk to Suki, so I took her to the balcony. 

"Suki? I'm really sorry for shouting at you, I didn't mean to I really didn't, I'm really sorry yeah?"

She just gave me a small nod before walking away. Good job Min jee you really are pathetic, you can't even keep your friend. I went into our beedroom and searched for something in my bag. Found it, my best friend which happens to be a small knife. I sat down on the bed, everyone else were in the living room chatting and laughing. I slowly put the knife on my wrist letting it cut deeper and deeper. I then hid the knife when I heard someones footsteps. Shit, what do I do? I put my arm in to the pocket of my hoodie hoping it wouldn't bleed through. It was Jin.

"Did you want something?"

"No, I just wanted Jimin's shirt, he said he needed to wash it, could you give it to me?"

"Yeah, just wait in the living room I'll come out in a minute"

He went out and I tried to find anything I could stop the bleeding with. Come on there has to be something. The door slowly opened revealing Jimin and Suga.

"What's taking you so lo-" Suga stopped and was cutted of by Jimin.

"Min jee what happened to your wrist? And what's with the knife pocking out from under the pillow?" Jimin asked.

"Don't tell me you've cutted yourself again." Suga said, yes he knew about it.

They both look at me dissapointed. Well once again good job you're so pathetic.

"I-I'm so so sorry"

Sorry