Through Heartache And Bleeding Tears (Sharon and Alaska's Baby Boy)

Chapter 17- Let Me Come...

(Kai's POV)

Its a few days later and today I was seeing Daddy to see if he really was listening to me; I really want my family back together and I want Jinkx to be part of the family too but Jinkx right now needs a stable and loving home. 

I don't want to ever put Jinkx in a situation where he's triggered or he's going to get hurt somehow; I would never forgive myself if something happened to him or he did get hurt. 

Not like Alaska and Sharon would ever hurt him but I'm mostly referring this at Sharon because he still needs to get his shit together. 

Alaska absolutely loves Jinkx like his own son and I find it fucking adorable because she's opening her heart out to someone who I love and she accepts him. 

Sharon on the other hand, I'm a little frightened because I want both Sharon and Jinkx in my life but right now if I had to choose who to keep out of them both, I would choose Jinkx. 

I don't want Sharon out of my life but after the the events recently; I don't really have much of a choice but to choose Jinkx over Sharon. 

At least he gets on well with Alaska and he knows that she would never hurt him; he knows that she just wants to be a mom to him. 

It was nearly 1pm in the afternoon and I was pretty much ready to skip school for the afternoon to check upon my Daddy and see if he really listened to me which somehow I doubt but I need to see. 

Jinkx wanted to come with me but I told him that it could be dangerous as I don't know whether my Daddy will be sober or not; I just don't want him to get hurt. 

I told him I will be back before school finishes and that I would meet him outside of school when the bell rings. 

"Are you sure you're gonna be okay without me" Jinkx asked as we put our lunch trays on the stand in the canteen "trust me I'll be fine plus I don't want you to get hurt" I said as we exited the canteen he sighed and stopped walking; I turned around and could see the concern within his eyes.

"Please let me come baby" Jinkx asked "I'm sorry baby but its too dangerous; I promise to be outside of school when you finish" I smiled and kissed his cheek he sighed again but accepted my reason and we both started walking our separate ways. 

Seeing him leave made my heart ache; I know he just wants to protect me but he has no idea how violent Sharon can get and I'm not risking him getting hurt. 

Once Jinkx had left; I started walking to the front of school and making sure the receptionist wasn't there.

She wasn't which was good so I walked out of school and started walking towards my home...or I wish I could call it home but for the past few years, I've not called it home. 

The only time it has felt like home was when Laskey was there; she's always made it feel like home even when I didn't want to call it home. 

What I still can't believe is that Daddy actually hurt Laskey on the day she took me away from home to Danny's. 

Sharon has lied countless times that he would get help but he wouldn't but he always said that he would never hurt Alaska and yet...he has. 

He's hurt my Laskey and I think this is why I'm so frightened of letting Jinkx into the family or letting him near Sharon because I have no idea how he will react when reality hits him that I'm dating him. 

I finally arrived home and felt my heart sink in fear at the thought of Daddy passed out upon the floor; I was expecting to see that sight but I don't want to see that, I want to see Daddy sober, had a wash and cleaned the place up. 

I walked over to the front door; half expecting Daddy to be passed out upon the floor but also seeing that he's sober and doing okay. 

I walked into the house and my heart sunk to the ground at the sight in the open plan living room, I can't believe I'm seeing this in front of me.

To Be Continued 

A/N Sorry I haven't updated this; uni has kept me busy.