Through Heartache And Bleeding Tears (Sharon and Alaska's Baby Boy)

Chapter 18- I'm Sorry For Disobeying Laskey

(Kai's POV)

In the living room is Sharon and...Alaska sat upon the couch and its looks like they are talking things through and the events that have happened. 

"Hi Kai" Daddy smiled "hi..." I said not making eye contact with Alaska "I'll talk to you in a moment Sharon, I need to have a word with my son" Alaska gave me a stern look as she got up from the couch and she walked into the kitchen. 

I swallowed the lump that was in my throat and slowly followed Laskey into the kitchen where she did not look the best pleased at me. 

"I can...explain" I said trying not to make eye contact "you damn well better explain; why are you here" Alaska asked I sighed "I just hated seeing you so heartbroken so I thought to try and fix this mess" I said.

"By disobeying my orders; I took you away from Aaron because he abused you and you're seeing him behind my back" Laskey sighed "I'm disappointed in you...when I set orders I expect them to be followed not disobeyed" she sighed; Laskey sounded angry but upset at the same time and I felt bad. 

"Laskey...I'm sorry" I sighed "don't call me Laskey; only my good baby boy can call me that" she said and turned to Sharon who was upon the couch staring into space. 

"You better get back to school; I'll deal with you later" Alaska said I sighed "I'm sorry Las...Justin, I just wanted my family back that's all" I said and started walking towards the front door, completely ignoring Daddy; he suddenly wasn't the enemy here...I was. 

I left the house so silently that you could of heard a pin drop and I made my way back to school; this was a bad idea from the start but I really just was trying to get my family back together. 

Now my Laskey hates me; she would never abuse or punish me like Daddy has done but I've disappointed her and I hate myself for doing this. 

I'm suppose to be supporting Alaska through this hard time yet I'm disobeying her orders and I don't think I will be her happy baby boy for a while. 

I didn't even want to go back into school, I just wanted to kill myself; I knew my suicidal thoughts were creeping up on me but I've tried to suppress them the best I can. 

I kinda want to tell Laskey but that's probably a bad idea and well everything is just fucked up now, I don't know where I stand between my own parents. 

I finally got back to school and saw another sight but this one was nice and its the only sight I wanted to see; it was Jinkx sat outside upon the school steps. 

"Hi baby" I said "hi...are you okay, did he hurt you again" Jinkx asked standing up walking towards me "no something even worse...mom was there and she's mad at me" I sighed Jinkx sighed and embrace me within his arms. 

"All I wanted was my family back together but I've somehow made it worse" I sobbed into Jinkx's shoulder "its okay baby, I'm here" Jinkx rubbed my back softly; we pulled away and my heart felt warm knowing Jinkx was here. 

"Kai..." I heard mom; I turned around and saw her with an upset expression upon her face "both of you in the car" she said; we didn't disobey, just got in the car and it was silent. 

None of us dared to say anything and right now suicide was the only thing I was thinking about and I was becoming slightly triggered. 

We finally arrived at Danny's house and Jinkx and I slowly walked into the house to be greeted by Danny upside down upon the couch, at least someone was in a happy mood.

"Hey guys, good day at school" Danny asked; no one responded to him and Danny realised something serious has happened.

"How about you and Danny go and pick out some food, I need to speak with my son in private" Alaska said to Jinkx; he just nodded and sat next to Danny whilst I walked upstairs to my room with mom following close behind. 

I sat upon my bed with Alaska closing the door in the process and she looked upset like I really have fucked up. 

"Why baby" Alaska asked giving me eye contact "I just wanted my family back together...I still love Daddy and I know you do too, I'm sorry" I sighed.

"I know sweetheart but I set those orders to protect you" Alaska sighed and sat next to me "I'm sorry Justin; I didn't mean to disobey your orders" I said "I know you didn't baby but you're my handsome baby boy and I love you" she sighed.

"I want the family back together but its going to take time for me to trust him again" she said I nodded "can I call you Laskey again" I asked looking up to mom "of course you can sweetheart" Alaska smiled and wrapped her arms around me pulling me into her embrace.

"I love you Laskey" I smiled resting my head upon her chest "I love you too my baby boy" Laskey smiled and kissed my forehead. 

"What were you talking about with Daddy before" I asked she sighed "we were just discussing somethings that's all" Alaska said tightening her grip upon me "does it concern me" I asked "of course it does baby but I can't discuss anything yet" she sighed.

"I just want to protect my handsome baby boy as much as possible, okay" Laskey smiled and kissed my head I sighed but accepted that she really did just want to protect me, her baby boy who brings joy to her life every fucking day.

I curled up to my Laskey even more for a while until I eventually fell asleep with my head upon her lap and knowing I was still her baby boy.