Talking To Myself

It has been so easy

"I don't like the feeling of pain,

For that's when darkness take over the game,

Thoughts goes through my mind,

Thoughts that causes me to break down

Though no one knows about this nature of mine,

I have this illusion to make people think I'm alright,

That even if I did have problems,

I have enough strength to solve them without the use of my dear old friend,

But darling,

Do you know how easy it has become,

To smile even when your tears aren't dry,

To smile even when the pain is still alive,

To smile even when your soul shatters and dies,

That's how easy it has been for me,

That I sometimes wonder if I'll ever go back to the old me,

But why hope,

When I'm broken in pieces,

The pain I go through isn't something I can bear,

But I won't end my life,

Not because I'm strong,

Its because pain is the only thing that makes me feel like I'm in control."

So sorry for the late update, I didn't have time to update since I was sick but I'm okay now. (Stupid asthma) Comment down what you guys think the title should be.