I slammed my bedroom door with a bang, i had ran straight home after milkshakes with the boys not caring that it was pouring down and i didnt have a jumper with me, my hair is frizzy and stuck to my face, my mascara had run so it was now in streaks of black making me look like a panda .I had shut the door with such force the room had shook and knocked my photo frame over scattering little shards of glass everywhere, I walked over to the frame cutting my feet as i carefully knelt down to pick what was left of it back up.
" Nick? Kya?" i whispered wiping the frame from dust with my trembling cut hands, had i forgotten them? i'd actually forgotten them? i have been too wrapped up to realise they were actually gone guilt built up inside of me bubbling, all i wanted to do was cry but no tears were coming out, i still cant believe it has happened and i can't do anything about it.
We were all sitting there; Kya in the back seat leaning forward to the front seats it was the three of us,were so great together like the three musketeers I still remember taking the photo as if it was only yesterday it was meant to be such a good day too.
*Flashback*
"ROAD TRIP!" squealed Kya her blond hair swishing around in excitement almost smacking me in the face a bit, i just sighed and leaned over to my boyfriend Nick and ran my hand through his black hair
"She's this excited already? its not her birthday till tomorrow" i said laughing coming up with new hairstyles for him or as he likes to call it 'messing up his hair'
"Aw shes your sister give her some slack" he whispered in my ear but it was loud enough for her to hear
"Yeah Ali cut me some slack!" she sang pulling her tongue at me and hi fiving nick so i leaned back and ruffled her hair
"NOT THE HAIR ALI NOT THE HAIR" She screamed desperately trying to smooth her hair back into place.
"Calm down! you look pretty" i said calming her crazy little head down
"Im guessing you guys want some food? we'll pull over at that food cafe" nick said pulling over and turned on the radio loud, when he came back the song had changed to bruno mars' just the way you are- my favourite song of all time
" and when you smile the whole world stops and stares for a while cause girl your amazing just the way you are" Nick sang along dancing too out of key of course but it was just as sweet
"i love you so much" i told nick rubbing circles into the back of his neck, i sat on his lap kissing his soft lips, this boy is my saviour my one and only.
"EEEWWW! How can you kiss boys Ali?" she asked me wrinkling her nose totally ruining the moment so i pull back and try to explain;
"You will have your very first boyfriend when your older and you will kiss him" i told her but apparently that wasnt acceptable
"NEVER!" she yelled as we set back onto the road driving off to our trip to Disneyland Florida, i wrapped my arms around nick and pulled Kya towards me so she leaned up near us
"Say cheese!" i shouted as we all smiled as we took pictures with my camera
"i like this one" i said pointing out a funny face one
"Yeah me too" piped up Kya and nick just wrapped his arm around me
"Listen Ali baby i wanted to wait but i can't hold it in any longer will you-"
"NICK! WATCH OUT!" i screamed as bright light headed towards us, the car seemed to of rolled off the cliff road and into the ocean. I opened my eyes underwater; nick was knocked out and Kya was there with panicked eyes struggling with her seat belt. I quickly grabbed nick and undone myself to begin to try and get Kya loose but nothing was happening, all of a sudden her eyes began to droop and her body stopped moving i tried shaking her but nothing was working.
The next thing i know im being pulled out by man leaving Nick and Kya behind
"WHERE IS SHE!?" I screamed half crying half choking but nobody would answer me, they started trying me down with all of these different straps then loading me onto a ambulance.
I flitted my eyes open to a white room where two doctors came in "I'm afraid we have bad news" said one
"Both your passenger's died, Nicolas Malone from a blow to the head and Kya Bishop from drowning" said the other, i automatically burst into floods of tears rocking back and forth back and forth
"We are very sorry for your loss miss Bishop but we do have to give you something, um..this" said one of the doctors handing me a small box, i opened it slowly and inside was a beautiful engagement ring " We found it on the male passenger miss" they said before leaving.
He had been meaning to propose to me? but died before he got the chance, me and him would never have a future together, all those things we'd planned go to waste? and Kya would never have the chance to have her first kiss or boyfriend, i'd never be able to see her graduate university or go to high school, i would never see her get married or have a family. She was only nine years old she barely had a life.
A huge hole in my heart gaped open making me want to scream in pain and anger why them? why not take me instead.
*Flash back over*
I stared at the picture then hugged it to my chest glass shards fell all over me but i was numb with pain anyway. Shortly later after the accident i'd gone to the drink and drugs but nothing helped, my parents got angry with me they wanted their little girl Kya back not the stroppy teenager Ali who'd want that? they wanted nothing more to do with me so they kicked me out onto the streets. I avoided water as much as i could from then on and getting myself into the bath was a nightmare which i luckily had sapphire to hold me down when i screamed and kicked at her to get out, she is such a good friend sometimes i just can't see why she puts up with me.
I carefully picked up a glinting piece of glass and held it to my wrist before dropping it, even though i hate myself as much as i do cutting i know isn't going to change things.
A loud knock came from the door making me jump up in fright "GO THE FUCK AWAY!" i screamed crying at the same time i have no innocence anymore.
"Um.. is this a bad time? its um... me...harry"
Wont this boy give up already?
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Sorry i know its a filler! but it gives you a better look into her history anyway dedicating this to SameMistakes cause her stories are AMAZAYN! Picture this is like one of my absolute favourites :) xxxx
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I should've kissed you.-Onedirection fanfic
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