My Poetry Collection

In Between

I don't know if I'm introverted or extroverted. I like being alone because being around people can be stressful. But when I'm alone I start to think about things. And that's normal, I know, everyone thinks about things obviously. But I keep thinking about things and I can't distract myself from it. I contemplate things so deeply and meticulously that I crumple a beautiful thought into a paper ball. They keep going and keep twisting until the once normal thought just doesn't make sense anymore and there's no way to reshape it. I try and I try to get back to where I started but I just make it worse. I don't solve the rubix cube, I break it to pieces.

So at least I know that when I'm around people I won't hurt my own brain, but I wind up hating myself anyways because when I'm not thinking too hard, I'm not thinking hard enough and I find myself saying something stupid. I say something that hurts someone's feelings or I do something that makes it look like I don't care at all. Even though deep down I care so much that it hurts.

So I guess I'll go on somewhere in between.

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So I started this out saying that these would all just be poems and short writings but I didn't actually define what I meant by shorter writings because honestly I didn't have any particular thing in mind. But here's an example of a shorter writing I guess.