MISTAKE. ㅡ sk [on-hold]

iii. envy

❝ㅡsomeone else has.❞

iii. envy

[han jisung calling...]

chan picked up, he wondered why jisung's calling him. but a different voice can be heard from the other line, "uh, hello? who's this?"

"is this bang chan?"

chan's forehead creased, wondering who is he talking to right now and why is it not jisung?

"uh, yes? waitㅡwho's this? and why do you have jisung's phone? where is he?"

"you might want to come to the nearest hospital, sir. you're the only person we've reached at the moment." the person didn't even bother to answer any of his questions.

"what?! what are you talking about?" he was now getting nervousㅡfor a reason he doesn't want to know.

then chan heard deafening screamsㅡsomeone was shouting, he then realized that it's not from the other side of the lineㅡit's somewhere from the houseㅡfrom the living roon specifically.

chan dropped the phone, not caring if it breaks or not. something's wrong, he could feel it.

chan hurried to the living room, "hey! what happened?!"

"OH MY GODㅡChrist, oh my god!" felix pointed his shaking finger at the televisionㅡthere, something is playingㅡthe 24-hour news.

"...gunshot was heard... ran to check it... turns out a kid... there with blood around... called 911... i did believe... is still breathing."

his eyesight and sense of hearing got blurry and weirdㅡa feeling in his bones that he shouldn't feel, he got guilty for what he had done.

"...shouldn't have let him... outside... himself." chan whispered to himself while in a trance.

"the boy was identified as han jisung from the phone's profile. the boy was immediately brought to the nearest hospital by paramedics."

with that, chan gathered the whole group and directly went to the hospital while calling their manager on the way there.

the group immediately asked the receptionist upon arriving, not wasting any time, they rushed to the room directed to them.

jeongin stopped, with teary eyes looking at the door with jisung's name plate on it. "iㅡ i can't."

you can really feel the tension between them. the others felt sad, others felt helpless, others wanted to see jisung.

chan sighed, looking at the youngest of them, "you can stay here with woojin for the meantime, is that okay?"

jeongin nodded then went to sit by the arranged monoblocks with woojin.

chan was about to lead the rest of the group inside when a nurse came out of the door. then they immediately rushed to her.

"what happened? where is he? how is jisung? he's still alive, right?" those were some of the questions bombarded at her.

"will you all calm down? are you the patient's relatives?"

the boys shook their heads. "we are his friends, his family is on the way here. how is jisung's condition?" seungmin asked, voice filled with worry.

the nurse told them that they are still observing jisung's condition and they still need to talk to the family of the patient before releasing private information. the nurse also told them that only one person at a time can visit the patient since his condition is still critical.

the boys waited for jisung's family to come first. when they arrived, hugs and tears and words of encouragement were exchanged.

after jisung's family, chan asked permission to them if they could enter the room alreadyㅡone by oneㅡbecause they've been waiting to see their friend.

chan being a good friend and leader, let the others go in firstㅡhim being last.

after each boy, you could tell how much the situation affected them. but the fact that it was minho who did it, it really did caused a great havoc to them.

"it's your turn, hyung." changbin, the last boy who came out, whispered to him.

"okay," chan looked at the door then back at changbin. "why don't you and the rest buy some food? we haven't had dinner since the incident."

felix butted in, "we're not hungry, hyung."

"but we need strength," chan meekly smiled at them. "to be strong for him. jisung wouldn't want us to look like shit if he recovers, you know?" he suggested.

the two boys nodded then went to tell others buy food with them.

the hallway was awfully quiet. jisung's parents came back to their house an hour ago to get some food and clothes needed.

chan silently entered the boy's room. the room smelled like chlorine or some hospital odor that the older boy can't point out. and everything was whiteㅡfrom the walls, to the small table with a monoblock and to the sheets and bed where jisung is.

chan went closer to the bed, then closer to jisung's body whose half-covered with the white sheetsㅡhis fingers trailing on the pure white satin.

his heart ached. he never wanted this to happen, he felt irritated and mad towards his self. for the nth time that night, tears are brimming on the corners of his eyes. his chest heaved. he brought his hand towards his mouth to cover up the gasps and cries.

"gosh, iㅡ" he paused.

then bang chan laughed. he laughed as if no one could hear him, as if there's no tomorrow. he laughed until he cried, he laughed for what almost seemed like a century.

then he calmed himself upㅡafraid that someone might hear him.

"geezㅡwhy was it minho?" he questioned himself.

he looked at the bed-ridden boyㅡwith distaste. with hatred. with malicious eyes.

"why? when it could've been me. he can't even do his job right, pathetic. can't even do a single thing right." he rolled his eyes while thinking of the said boy, then proceeded to sit down on unoccupied stall.

"i should be me who did it, you know. but that asshole minho wanted to do it. should've known he'll fuck this job up." he spat with voice full of distaste.

"unlike minho, i don't envy you. you were messing up my plansㅡa huge barrier towards my success so i needed to eliminate you." he told the younger boy as if he's telling a bedtime story.

then he continued, "but don't worry, once we get out of here, i'll be the one who'll do it right this time."

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oof 1k+ wordsss to make up for my hiatus lmao
btw, sin 1:envy is done yazzz
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