MISTAKE. ㅡ sk [on-hold]

i. greed

❝a selfish and excessive desireㅡ❞

i. greed

after seven-long years, he could finally cry his eyes out of satisfaction for he finally reached his long-time dream.

you see, being a trainee wasn't easy as what others think. being locked up in the dungeon or basement of the company you've been with wasn't easy.

there are times when it gets really hard and tiring to the point where you wanted to give up.

time flies so fast, other trainees debuted alreadyㅡchan felt insecure. even those who're younger than himㅡhad shorter trainee experience than him, debuted already. every time he hears a news about groups debuting (regardless it's from his company or not), insecurity and self-doubt would hit him real hard.

when am i going to debut? am i even worthy to get my dream? what do i lack at? have i done everything yet?

there are times where he'd sacrifice his sleep for more practice, just to get there. but a lot of times where he'd cry himself to sleep, thinking if he'll ever get to debut.

"hey," jihyo, a member of a girl group under the same company, tapped on his shoulders. "i heard your group is gonna debut soon!"

chan shyly smiled, "yeah, after how many years."

"i'm so glad you're finally gonna debut! after all these years, you're getting there. i'm glad you didn't give up though."

"yeah, right. i just can't believe it, you know."

"hey jihyo! we need to go back to the dorm!" jeongyeon, jihyo's co-member, called her.

"i'll be right there!" jihyo called out. "hey chan, i think that's my cue now." jihyo waved at him goodbye.

and with that, chan went back to the practice room to practice with the group for the nth time.

"hey guys!" he called out to the guys. "let's start practicing!"

"hyung, can we rest please?" jisung suggested at his hyung, still tired from practicing.

"but we just had a break, you know. now let's back to practicing." chan disagreed.

"chan, i think we had it enough for the day. don't you think we need to rest?" woojin said, slightly worried about the group.

"woojin, what are you talking about? rest? at a time like this? and at this rate?" chan looked at him with disbelief.

"hyung, woojin hyung is right. we need to rest. let's not overwork ourselves, okay?" seungmin also suggested, feeling extremely tired.

"no, c'mon you guys."

jeongin tried to console him, "hyungㅡ"

"i said, no!" and chan finally snapped, "it's not the time to rest! guys, we're finally debuting soon and what's on your mind right now? you wanna rest?! you think you had enough practice to just do that?!"

jeongin glanced at the wall clock located at the nearest door. "hyung, it's 3 o'clock. let's just contiㅡ"

"shut up!"

felix held chan, trying to calm him down. "hey man, chill, would ya?" felix spoke in english with his aussie accent, "we're all tired, let's just rest, okay?"

(note: let's just say they're all speaking in korean here lol. italics in english.)

"fuck off, felixㅡno, all of you." and with that, he went out of the room leaving everyone shocked.

especially jeongin who's about to cryㅡbut strongly held it back.

"i don't know what he said but the fuck just happened?" changbin voiced out.

"watch your mouth." minho warned, then went out of the room as well, probably going to find where chan went.

"now, now. let's head back to the dorm, okay? i'll talk to chan about this." woojin reassured the members, leading them out of the room to head back to their dorm while holding jeongin to prevent him from bursting into tears.

almost everyone fell asleep on the car ride on their way to the dorm. well, except for jeongin and woojin.

"hyung?"

"hmm, jeongin-ah? i thought you're asleep." you can clearly tell from his voice that he's tired.

"i wasn't." there was a moment of complete silence. then he asked, "hyung, what happened to chan hyung? he wasn't like that before."

woojin thought about it. careful of his words, "maybe it's the stress, jeongin-ah. we're debuting soon so it's normal that he reacted that way and he's our leader, so he might be feeling burdened."

woojin added, "plus he waited for this all his life, that must be why he's stressing too much."

jeongin nodded even though woojin can't see him from the passenger seat.

"and on his behalf, i'm sorry if he snapped at you." woojin consoled him.

"it's fine, hyung. after what you said, i understand. chan hyung can snap at me anytime, i'll still understand him."

woojin looked at him and even though he's tired (they all are), he still gave him a smile. after that, he went back to his normal position.

while facing ahead, he said, "you're such a good kid, jeongin. we don't deserve you."

jeongin giggled. and that somehow gave woojin some sort of relief despite of what happened.

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finally updated this aaaah okay