Without a Trace #SeaPeeSoundFanfiction

#Chapter5

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"What do you want to do for today? Maybe we could try out some games at the arcade." Lizzie offered me while I shook my head at her.

We were just sitting in the Starbucks in London while everyone was offering me what I wanted to do. Honestly, I'm happy that I am outside for the first time in a week but everyone was way too happy for my liking. I wanted the mood sadder but I didn't want to rain on their parade. Yammy and Kyle joined in to help me do something just to forget about Oli but it was a lot harder than what all of us had thought. Ever since Oli left, it was hard for me to enjoy anything. He was my best friend.

And best friends never leaves each other out.

"Callum, what is something that we can cheer you up with? I wish I know a way to make you happy but you are not helping us out by staying silent." Scott say to me while I can everyone's faces looking slightly stressed out. I can't blame them for that.

They literally went out of their way to make me happy and all I was doing was rain on their parade and making them metaphorically yank their remaining strands of hair out of their scalp.

"I'm just going to take a walk down by the London eye for a bit. I'll call if I want to get picked up okay?" I tell them as Jess was a bit saddened at me request.

I don't blame her for that either. She was there for me but all I have been doing was shutting her out. I know about her phone calls to her parents and how she can't help me. It hurt me that I was hurting my fiance but if Oli was here by my side none of this would've happened.

I grab my phone and wallet and I left the Starbucks where my friends were and walked all the way towards the London Eye which was just around the corner. As I began my walk down towards the London Eye, a song started to play from my phone.

In the day

In the night

Say it right

Say it all

You either got it

Or you don't

You either stand

Or you fall

I think back to the day that I got the note from Oli. It was at the time when he said in his note and I quote: "someone that has caused him pain unintentionally and leave my former feelings behind."

I don't understand by what he means by leaving his former feelings behind. Or by someone causing him pain unintentionally. His way of logic was confusing. He was like a riddle; the way he says / writes things and the outcome makes much more sense in the end.

Oh you don't mean

Nothing at all to me

Oh you don't mean

Nothing at all to me

But you got what

It takes to set me free

And you could mean

Anything to me

The lyrics are making some of understanding to me for some strange reason. Oli is my best friend and he brightens my world.

He had the most cuddly hugs out of my friends.

He made me feel over protective of him.

He made me feel loved.