I was educated to love everyone.
I was educated to love when the moment was right.
I was...and am being educated to love.
We were taught to reproduce and love.
We were supposed to be taught to respect.
But why do I feel like I cant love.
I like this boy. A handsome young man in my eyes. He is perfect. He shows that he cares and he told my friends that I was beautiful.
Who wouldn't date him in that moment?
Me of course. Why? Because I'm stupid. And don't deserve anyone to love me.
Am I depressed?
You could say so. I took a test that I lied on so I wouldn't have to get treatment for having depression.
Why would I possibly do that? Because I wouldn't want to add to the problems that are on my parents shoulders.
I know they love me. And I know this boy likes me. But why cant I see the good in me? Why cant I say yes to this boy and be happy?
Because the answer is so simple yet so complicated, I don't love myself.
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