Sona's Dream

Chapter 2

-Ok please everyone give her an applause!

Everyone clapped and looked at me. I felt their eyes on me. The announcer left the stage. Ok I need to sing now. The melody of the song began to play. I took a big breath and began to sing. I closed my eyes. Oh no! I need to open them and look at my public! I gave my best to open them. Yes! I made it! Now I need to move around! And I'm not allowed to stare at one direction! I started to move slowly around. From left to right and then from right to left again. I tried to hide that I'm nervous and that I have fear. I moved around with my free hand around while I sing. I looked sometimes at the juries. Sometimes they were looking at me, sometimes they wrote something down, sometimes they closed their eyes to enjoy the music or to analyse how I sing. But the last and the oldest jury had no expression at all. He stared at me. Yes just stared at me. He didn't change his expression, it's like he is doing pokerface. He didn't even close his eyes! That's fucking creepy! Every time when I'd looked toward the juries and had noticed his stare toward me, I looked away quickly. What is he staring at?!

I finished my song. The public gave me a big applause. The announcer entered the stage again:

-That was wonderful Miss Sona! What does the jury say?

The first one began to say:

-Your voice is really good. But sometimes you change your voice to fast from high to deep.

-As already said nice voice. And I think you did not to change it too fast.

-You need to move more freely. I could tell that you was really nervous. Hide it next time better. But it was really good.

-Nothing to say.

What?! Really?! He stared at me the whole time! Yes the WHOLE time! So I had imagined, that he will keep a long speech which will last like hours! BUT NO! He said just three words! Not words like "it was good" but nothing to say!

-Ok thank you a lot Miss Sona! Please everyone give her an applause! Now let's welcome the next candidate: Monica!

Wait what?! Next candidate?! Did I... FAILED?! OMG no how!? Was I that bad after all?... I felt like how my tears are coming. OMG no! Not on the stage! I left the stage fast. I past a young girl who was on her way to the stage. That girl was probably Monica. I went in my room. Why did I failed? Why they didn't even tell me why I failed? Okay they said I need to move more freely and I need to improve my voice... Was that the reason why I failed?! My tears began to run down my face, I began to cry. First I cried voiceless, then I cried out louder and louder. DAMN! I couldn't stop myself! My biggest dream ended up like a piece of paper which felt in a fire. Gone! It disappeared in nothing! All those trainings for nothing! Damn, damn, damn! How could I be so naïve? I knew that becoming a singer would be always just a dream! How could I imagine myself standing on stage? Going on worldwide tourneys? Pff... Stop dreaming girl! I wiped my tears away. Damn if I only practiced more... Then maybe I didn't failed... Right! Why am I crying like a little girl?! It won't help me! No! I shall not give up. I will train, train and train until I pass out! The next time I won't fail. Definitively! I will pass, I will be perfect! I looked in the mirror. My mascara is totally destroyed. I took a paper, made it wet and began washing it away. Then I put new mascara on my face. Yes, I'm now a new girl! I'm no longer a cry-baby. I can't afford it. I failed this time because I'm still like a baby! Weak as fuck! I cannot hide forever! I cannot run away all the time. I need to look forward, fight against my enemies and go on forward. Even if I should fall and fail, I need to stand up again and walk forward again. Again and again. I need to learn from my faults, from my past. It is not said for nothing, that: "What already happened is called past, what will happen is called Future and that's why today is called PRESENT! Past cannot be changed but present can, so will be the future!" Yes right! Learn from the past, learn in your present and change your future! A new Sona is born today. Hm... How shall I call this "new" myself now? Super-Sona? Haha OMG when I thought of the name Super-Sona I had to laugh. Suddenly someone knocked on the door...

-Miss Sona?

It was the announcer. What does he want?

-Uhm yes?

-The juries call for you. Please be behind the stage in 10 minutes. Thank you.

-Okay I will come in 10 minutes.

What do they want from me? I'm already out. They did not let me past so why call for me? To tell me that I failed? Or do that old man want to stare at me and my body once more?! I think he is an old damn pervert! The thought alone made me all yucky! I hate perverts! That's why I can't stand boys! They are all creepy, pervert, stupid, annoying and childish! I can't understand why girls like boys. Or why they kiss each other and have sex! Some are even so stupid to spend their lives with them! Ugh! Oh well I need to go now to the stage! I left the room and went toward the stage.