My Songbook

Pain

Its 3 am and I'm crying,

Wishing I had my old life,

Dragging a blade across my wrist,

Thinkin why did it have to end like this

Is life a never ending game?

That's always filled with pain?

I just want things to be like before,

But I know it will never be the same

Cause we're all in the same game,

Just different levels,

Dealing with the same hell,

Just different devils

Why is life so fucking hard?

I'm over here at the bar,

drinking my feelings away,

Wishing my life would expire,

I just wish you were there for me,

But no you just had to fuck it up,

And go against me,

I was there for you,

But you threw bullshit at me

I'm so alone,

Slowly losing hope,

Tryna stand tall on my own,

But its so fucking hard to cope,

My soul has been blown to pieces,

Bullet holes everywhere,

Mentally deafeated,

Getting choked up by my own demons,

I was your cure,

But you were my disease,

I was trying to save you,

But the whole time you were fucking killing me

Why?

Why'd you leave?

Was I not good enough for you?

Was there something that I couldn't achieve?

I tried my all,

But it seems like it wasn't worth your everything,

I hate you,

But at the same time I have feelings,

I just wanna numb the pain,

Til I can't speak,

Til I can't feel a damn thing,

You've broken me,

But watch Karma get you in your sleep