Your Girlfriend Side Story: I Smile ✓

First Time, Last Time

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August, 8th 2008
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I bet that is the most happiest day in my life that will happen again 10 years later, when I finally marry her but we never know how the fate works right?
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That day is when I finally gather all of me to confess to her.
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Min Yoonji, she's a perfect description of perfection, for me. She's charming, beautiful, smart, kind hearted, cheerful, but sometime also very sneaky and naughty. Unlike some other teenager, she's different.
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While some other girls are fangirling over our Basketball Team or some other sport team, she prefer to stay in library and reads, or maybe writes sometime.
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She also love music, although she didn't sing or play any instrument, but her knowledge of music is so amazing. I love discussing with her. The more I spent my time with her the more I realize, I can't go on without her.
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I love her. I figure it out when I invite her to our performance in school festival. Her eyes were sparkling when she stood on the front line watching our live performances. That little smile and giggles makes me can't take my eyes from her.
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“Min Yoonji, I fall for you at first sight. You were so beautiful when my eyes met you for the very first time, in the first day of school. Since then, I know that my highschool will be the best memories ever. Knowing you and getting close to you each day makes me want to be more than just best friend. I want to makes you happy as much as you makes me happy everytime you stay by my side, I promise I will…” I keep blabbering because I was so nervous, but she calmly hold my hand.
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I looked up to meer her eyes and get lost under her warm gaze.
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“Our feeling is mutual, Wonpil. I fall for you at first sight too, your puppy eyes are too cute to resist. You makes me happy too whenever I'm with you.” She answered my confession sincerely.
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That's it. That's the most happiest moment in my life.
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I love her. I lover her so much and as day goes by, my love for her grew bigger. Too big that most of the time I feel insecure, because she's just so beautiful.
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Anyone can come and take her away from me, but I'm grateful. I'm grateful that she still choose me, when the most popular guy in the high school asked her for prom.
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“My boyfriend is you, not him or someone else. Of course I'll go with you. Unless you don't want.” She teased me and I pulled her to my embrace, locked her securely in my arms.
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She's mine, and always be mine.
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At least that's what I thought back then. Our relationship was sailing smoothly. Even though after we graduated, our meeting were lessened but our feelings are always blossom.
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In 2010, after I graduated, I joined JYPE to pursued my dreams while she continue her study in university. I become their official trainee soon and she gave me full support to makes my dreams come true.
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Yoonji would sacrificed her studying and resting time just to sneak out with me for night date. Because of my band practice, we usually went out after 8PM or 9PM and she never complain about that.
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She's an angel.
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Of course, sometime we get into a small arguments. But whenever we fights, we always settled it down before the day end. I don't want her to go sleep with uneasy feelings. We survived for almost 4 years, until that day come.
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2013, the most painful year for me.
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It's the year where I broke up with her.
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“You should tell your girlfriend. You're going to debut soon and company will ban you from dating at least for a year after debut.” my company tell me and I feel lost.
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There's no way I can let her go, but in the other hand being musician and singer is my dream.
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And what makes it more memorable is, I tried to make her broke up with me by treat her coldly, ignore her, avoiding her, hoping she will gone mad and hate me.
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But she didn't. She stay strong by my side which makes me dying. I feel hurted because I saw her hurting. I hurted her.
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At the end, I have no choice but tell her the truth.
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“Yoonji, I want to apologize, for my bad behaviour to you lately. As you guess, I did that in purpose. I want to makes you hate me and broke up with me, but I can't believe you're so strong to stand by me. I was…”
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“You wanted me to break up with you? But why?! What I did wrong??” She asked and I remember how her tears slowly fall from her eyes.
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I don't want to do that, but I have no choice.
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“No, you've done nothing wrong.” I hugged her, as tight as possible. “It's my company, Yoonie.” I started and tell her everything about dating ban.
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You wouldn't believe me, but instead of being selfish and mad, Yoonji smile at me and give me a light peck on my lips. I was frozen.
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It's not the first time we kissed, but usually it's me who stealing kisses and pecks from her. She rarely do it.
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“Congratulations, Wonnie. Just know that I'll always support you. Remember, Yoonie is Wonnie's number 1 big fans.” She said while smiling and I let out a relief sigh.
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Yoonie and Wonnie is the nickname we gave each other.
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“I know it's selfish to ask this, but can you wait for me? I loved you so much Yoonie, I don't know what to do if I lose you.” I remember telling her about my insecurities but she cup my cheeks and say,
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“I don't want to promise anything because I don't know what will come tomorrow, but for now, I'll tell you. I love you so much too! I want you to chase your dreams, Woonie and if we're meant to be, then we'll find our way back, right?” She looked so innocent, too innocent that I can't say no to her.
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I wish I manage to makes her promise me, but I didn't.
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“Alright. Thanks for everything, Min Yoonji. I love you so so much.”
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I can't believe that was the last time we kissed.
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That was the last time we were so in love with each other.
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That was the last time I proudly called her, mine.
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