Your Girlfriend Side Story: I Smile ✓

예뻤어

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Feb, 2017 You Were Beautiful
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It has been a year since I said, I let her go and guess what? No. I never able to let her go. Even though she's belong to someone else now.
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She's dating Kim Taehyung. A member from BTS. The one who keep appearing in her personal SNS account. I think it started few months ago.
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I don't know when they officially started but lately they keep posting couple dating stuff which makes me broken hearted. Her boyfriend started first, and he has more post about both of them than Yoonji. They looked happy.
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They remind me of me and her, back then.
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Memories of us keep coming back.
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‘What I’m saying right now
Doesn’t mean that
We’re starting up again
I’m just bringing back
The remaining
Memories of you
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Without missing a single day
You told me that you love me
Before I went to bed
As soon as I opened my eyes
You told me
I remember so I’m just saying
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You were pretty
Your eyes that looked at me
Your voice that called out to me
Everything, everything
To me, everything about you
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You were pretty
The feeling of not wanting anything more
Moments that only you gave
Everything, everything
Everything has passed
But you were so pretty’
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Even though I only saw her from far right now, she's still beautiful.
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Even though she's not mine anymore, she's still beautiful.
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‘Memories of me
Have probably become
A thing of the past for you too
Whatever I saw to you
It will all be something
In the past
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Without missing a single moment
You always thought of me first
Even when it wasn’t a big deal
You said, I’m sorry, thank you
I remember so I’m just saying
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You were pretty
Your eyes that looked at me
Your voice that called out to me
Everything, everything
To me, everything about you
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You were pretty
The feeling of not wanting anything more
Moments that only you gave
Everything, everything
Everything has passed
But you were so pretty
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I still think of you sometimes
Should I call you up?
There were a lot of times I thought that but
Baby I know it’s already over
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No matter how much I want you
You are now just a movie of the past
That has already ended
I know’
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Sometime, whenever I visited places we used to go, eat her favorite meal, saw her favorite drink, found her favorite plushies, notice her favorite flowers, or simply when she crossed my mind, I often questioning my self,
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Can I call her up? Can I talked to her again?
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I don't know if she saw my performances or listen to my song but I remember I cried during one of our performances. It's my last verse.
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‘For the last time
Your eyes that looked at me
Your voice that said, take care
Everything, everything
Even that, to me’

(I recommended you to watch this video first, start at 3:37~)

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As I singing that line, I remember that day when we broke up. Before both of us parting to our own way, she looked at me and say,
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‘Take care.’ that eyes, that pair of eyes of her that looked into mine.
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That was so beautiful.
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All memories of us from our highschool until we broke up come to my mind in instant which makes me so emotional. It makes me lost in words as I can't continue singing anymore.
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I let my fans continue singing my part as I press my lips into a thin line and keep my head down, while trying my best to keep my beat on the keyboards.
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‘You were pretty
Even the tears you showed me
Moments I had with you
Everything, everything
Everything has passed
But you were so pretty’
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Everything has passed with you are still beautiful, Yoonji.
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