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Give it time (Part 2)

I woke up to the sound of beeping. I slowly open my eyes and try to sit up, but everything hurt way to bad. I had several wires attatched to my arms, and two tubes coming out of my nose. I also had one of those breathing masks on my face.

No. This couldn't be true. I was in a hospital. No no no. I was supposed to be dead. Thats all I wanted.. was to end all the pain.. but I couldn't even do that? God must hate me. I hear a door open, and I see a tall man in a white coat. Must be my doctor. He looked up from his clipboard, and a look of pure shock spread across his face. He dropped his clipboard, racing over to me and sitting on the side of my hospital bed. "Miss Y/L/N, y-you.. you're.. awake" the doctor said, still in shock. I shook my head in disappointment, I didn't want to be. "Miss Y/L/N, I don't think you understand..." the doctor trailed off, the starting of this sentence making me a bit confused. He sighed, and took my hand... which was a bit weird..but surprisingly, I didn't mind. "You see Miss Y/L/N, you.. well.." he trailed off again, making me almost lose my mind because of how confused I was now. My heart raced out of my chest, I'm nervous. But why..? I dont exactly know. I have no idea what I'm expecting. "You overdosed on pills, and also had a large over usage of alcohol...and from the toxic combination, you fell into a coma." He said, looking me strait in the eye. A coma? What?! How long? This was.. not what I thought was gonna happen. Obviously. "How long was i... out?" I said, my voice raspy and scratchy from the lack of speaking. "A year and two months, to be exact" the replied. What. The. Fuck. A year?! Holy shit... It felt like.. like two damn days. And like I said, I wanted to be dead. I thought I was dead. But.. no. Coma. Just a stupid  coma. Though my thoughts in my head were extremely angry, I had a shocked look on my face. "I think I need to go make some calls" the doctor said, getting up from  the bed and making his way out of my room.

After waiting for about.. 2 hours, I was absolutely bored out of my mind. Suddenly I hear the door open. I expect to see my doctor, but instead I see Frank, Ray, Mikey, and behind them all, Gerard. Oh god. They all stared at me the same way the doctor did, in shock. The awkward moment was sort of broken when Gerard shoved his way to the front the small group, staring at me even more, his mouth wide open and tears forming in his eyes. He stood there for a second, tears now flowing down his face. He ran over to me, plopped down on the side of my bed and hugged me tight. Before all of this happened, I would've wanted nothing more than to be in gerards embrace, but now.. I felt extremely uncomfortable. I shifted away from him, and slightly pushed him away. He looked at me with a look of confusion and hurt, his eyes red and puffy from crying. "Y/N, you're awake, oh God you're actually awake.. and alive.. its been so long.. I just.. oh god" he started crying even more, and tried to hug me again, but I flinched back, signaling that I didn't want a hug. Honestly, I didn't know what to say to him. I had ran out of things to say to him the day he left on his honeymoon with emily. It was nothing out of hate, nor anger, I just.. my life wasn't going anywhere, meaning i had nothing to talk about. I sighed, deciding to just say what I was thinking. "I dont want to be" I say, hanging my head low so that I didn't have to look at him. "Wha.. what?" He said, I could hear the hurt in his voice. I waited to him to get the hint, and as soon as he did, he let out a large gasp. "You.. you.. did this.. on.. purpose?!?" He said, anger  now adding to his tone. I look up, and he is completely broken. "Yes, Gerard." I said with barely any emotion, he winced at me using his full name. "I tried to kill myself. I didnt.. well.. I don't want to be here anymore. There is nothing for me. Im useless. I'm nothing." I said with the same tone as earlier. He just stared at me like earlier... then a look of realisation plastered on his face. "No. No no.. no.. oh god. That whole time, the time I was gone... you were.. going through so much hell and i.. I wasn't there for you.. I'm so sorry Y/N, oh my god.. I'm so sorry" he said, sobbing. Look what I did to him. God I was such a fucking screw up. I couldn't do anything right, or make anyone happy. "No gee, its not your fault. Not at all. You were on your honeymoon for Christ sake, you were living your own life. You're not responsible for me." I said, now crying as well. "You should be with Emily right now. Go." I said, wanting him to leave so all of this would just stop. "About her..." he said, scratching the back of his neck. Now I was confused again. "She and I arent a thing anymore, we divorced not long after we came home." I was shocked.. what? They are divorced.. already? Why? He could tell what I was thinking obviously, because he started to explain. "I caught her with another guy, turns out she jizt wanted me for my money" he said, dissapointed. "Oh wow, I'm so sorry gee" I said, wanting to comfort him but not wanting to really... get close to him, I guess. "Me too. But not because of her, because I wasn't there for you when I should have been. You are one of the most important people in my life and I cant believe I almost lost you.. because of me having my head shoved up my ass. I thought I was happy, when I really.. wasnt. You are my only true happiness Y/N, I love you" those words flew out of his mouth, and without giving me time to think about what just happened, he kissed me. It was filled with passion and love, I could tell he truly meant all of it. I kissed back, knowing that even though I wasn't supposed to even be here right now, this is still what I wanted, and what I have wanted for a very, VERY long time. We broke apart, both of us a bit breathless. "This is really fucking cheesy, but.. you have no idea how long I have loved you, gee" I say with a smile, pulling him in for another quick kiss. "Uhm.. hi Y/N.. its really great to see you" Ray said, a bit awkwardly. I giggled, and gee helped me up off my hospital bed, so I could hug everyone.

We may have been through a bit of a rough patch, but everything worked out In the long run. Me and gee are together now, and that's all I need.