dear Em

May 6

May 6

dear Em,

i don't know what to do. i just went off.

like

a

time bomb

ticking

i slammed my door ran into bed.

crying. they couldn't do this. wouldn't. i would not leave again. they said I could live with a friend. or find my own house, get a job. but why would they leave me.

who

cares

everyone already

has.

even you.

but it's time for a break time for a change. keep them lost in a completely different city.state.country.world.

life

i'll be on my own. but that's the way i like it. away. in my own space. i'll need no one. goodbye.

but someone always finds their way into me.near me. around those guards that are keeping them out. they find their way past the little cracks in me, down to where it's locked tight. but I keep it covered. where it's hard to find.

and i'm not telling you about it. but I need to. even if you don't get these letters. these long run-on sentences that only you or me could ever understand. that was the way i liked it when you were here with me always beside me. but i was always jealous of you. i still am. and of the others. to bad you can't know that Emigail. you would be proud of yourself for coming above.me. but also frightened that i could think of such things to say. it's how our minds work. you have to deal with that. i miss you.

come back.