poems.

sweet talker.

It has been quite a long time

since the both of us separated to different paths

it was almost our 1 year anniversary back then

i was excited, but i knew we're getting closer to the end of the path

your love faded slowly for a while

i noticed on how things changed

giving a huge impact on us

and it's too late to fix it

each day, you're getting far from my reach

i thought my fear wouldn't happen

but i was a fool to not realizing it was happening

i keep on trying to hold, when i knew it's time to let go

i always knew i don't deserve you from the start

and i knew that you'd eventually get tired of me

of my attitude, actions, problems, everything

but i accepted, because i thought you'd stay

i made a lot of mistakes

since everything's falling apart

i was afraid to let go

because you made me feel like human

endless nights will go by

and i'd stay awake

thinking about us

as tears fell

and thoughts twisted

then the truth speaks itself

and i knew it's the right time to end it

my heart was full of hesitation

but my mind decided to spoke

it was then i knew

your affections

your compliments

your promises

everything you did

is nothing less than just white lies

i fell for your trap

falling into endless hole of

the manipulating thing 

you called 'Love'

for the first months,

my feelings are complicated

my heart felt empty

i wasn't sad,angry or anything

what i felt was confusion

i was confused on why i didn't feel anything

it's as if like all my sadness and crying

went away along with him

those nights where i suffer was gone

looking at it now,

i'm still grateful that it happened

because you made me realize

no matter how much i hate you,

those memories will always flashed

it brings sorts of different feelings

whether it is painful or joy

there's no point for me 

to blame my hate and anger on you

i decided to think of you as a friend and a lesson 

and it is the best option for the both of us

because now, i feel more relieved

that you have met someone you deserve to be with