To Destroy Yourself

"I will not let you control me. You can't hurt people, I won't let you. Taunt and hurt me all you want, I don't care.but I won't let you hurt innocent people!" I shouted at her, despising how she laughs at my lack of strength. At the fact that we both know that eventually Ellyot will take control, and a lot of people will end up hurt when she does.

" Oh, Li" she tsked "Oh, sweet, kind, and naïve Elliot. You think that you have any say on the matter? I thought that you were smart enough to have learned that I can control you whenever I want. I could have killed so many people by now, but then you would be useless. I want to see you suffer before I really start hurting people. I want you to know how weak and naïve you really are, you have only barley begun to see how disgusting you are" her cackle rang out inside me head, I wished I could just end it all now. I truly had lost all care if I had to die in order to get Ellyot out of the world. As long as she was gone then the world would be better for everyone. "Yeah, but you can't even do that. You don't even have the balls to kill yourself to make the world better,safer," Ellyot scoffed. I clenched my jaw and hands, knowing that she was one hundred percent accurate.

"Li, dinner time! Will you please come and eat with us?" Delilah, my twin sister interrupted just as I was about to walk into the bathroom to see if I would actually have the courage to end if today. I froze for a moment, considering how it would effect her and my parents if I did manage to commit suicide. They would be confused as to why,maybe devastated that I was gone. Nobody knows about the other me,no, no, she isn't another me at all actually. No, she is a horrible monster that got trapped inside my brain and is refusing to leave. But either way, no matter what it who she is, I haven't and can't tell anyone about Elyot because she would either hurt whoever I told or the person wouldn't believe me anyways. Maybe I'll be able to get help before Ellyot hurts anyone though... maybe they'll find some miraculous way to get rid of her...

"Good luck with that dream, buttercup" Ellyot said sarcastically.

I bit my lip as a way of taming my nerves and keeping from screaming at how vile my alternate personality was. None the less, a good five minutes later I had gained enough courage too open my door and to slowly make my way to the dining room. I walked slowly in, unsure of how this entire meal and confession would go but needing to at least try no matter the outcome. I sat at the table where I usually sat, stuttering out a greeting to my family. Delilah smiled excitedly at me as if she hadn't seen me in months and it was a huge event. It wasn't until then that I realized it had been three months since I had last left my bedroom, I had lost count of the days after about two months. I distracted myself from the guilt by clearing my throat and looking at my mom. I opened my mouth to tell her about Ellyot and everything else but the devil herself captured my vocal chords, using them as her own,

"So what have I missed in this dump while I was in my room?" Her voice was a higher, slightly more feminine version of my own but it also held so much more hostility and confidence. I bit the inside of my lip, glad she hadn't said something a lot worse but upset and disappointed that the first sentence that "I" said to my family in three months was that. I took a deep breath and said quickly " I have another personality. Her name is Ellyot,And she is evil. That's why I locked myself in my room. She is so violent I couldn't risk you guys getting hurt," I tried to say it as clearly as possible but also in a rush before Ellyot interfered. I felt her rage building up, I could hear her speaking through me again,

"Well now that the weakling has spilt the beans, I guess I get to spill some blood," there was a heavy tone of menace in her voice and before she could do anything else, I was out of my chair and half way towards my bedroom. Her laugh echoed through my head as she slowly,tauntingly, turned my body back towards the dining room.

"GO INTO THE BATHROOM AND LOCK THE DOOR TILL I TELL YOU" I screamed desperately, fighting to control my own body. I heard them listen to my instructions and rush into the bathroom. I guickly focused everything on getting into my room and locking the door, I taped my hands together and sat in the corner farthest from the door before shouting that they could come out of the bathroom now. Ellyot was laughing hysterically, as if she was watching a comedy act instead of watching me struggle and panic. She new that she had won this battle and that I would be too scared to ever go near my family or other people ever again. She could have just killed all of them right when I got into the dining room, but she was testing me, she was warning me as to how much she controlled me and how very little I controlled her. How she would end up hurting people wether I tried to stop it or not.

"Won't let me control you, huh?Won't let me hurt people?" She chuckled menacingly "Well how's that going for you?"