To Destroy Yourself

Meeting Fate

The only noise I could hear was the scratching of my pencil against paper, but the silence was extremely comforting to me and I found myself genuinely relaxed for the first time in I don't even remember how long. My therapist gave me a journal that I am to write in every day. I was released from the regular hospital last week and have been going to therapy sessions every day since. I'm officially on prescription medicine for my split personality and I am under examination to be admitted into a mental asylum because of Ellyot's violent behavior and my suicide attempt. Apparently they find a kid who has a voice in their head who controls their body and attempts to kill people dangerous, especially when the kid is self loathing and prepared to die. Weird right? But I understood that without the medication I am a huge danger to everyone around me, so I am actually trying to persuade the doctors to put me into the care of a asylum. They are a bit surprised I am actually being more persistent in getting myself admitted into the nut house then them but it has sped up the process and I will be checked in as a patient by next week. I smiled slightly to myself at the thought of my family actually being safe without me here, I mean I had literally tried to kill my sister and father. They were a lot better off with me away from them. My pencil continued to mark the delicate notebook paper as my thoughts continued to flow, I was almost finished writing a paragraph when I heard the door open and someone step into the room. I didn't bother turning, knowing that it was

Delilah. She was the only one who actually dared be in the same room as me when she didn't have to be. I'm pretty sure that my parents will put me up for adoption if I am not taken to the mental hospital; after stabbing my father my parents had even less desire to be in the same world as me, let alone the same room. Delilah is the only person who is still around for me, who loves me, Elliot, more then she fears Ellyot. I turn around to greet her but am surprised to find my mother standing cautiously a few feet away.

"H-hi... M-mom" I stuttered, curious yet nervous as to why she was here.

"There's an employee of the... Asylum... She would like to meet you" was all she said before leaving. I can't say I wasn't disappointed that she was still terrified of me but in all honesty I'm terrified of myself too so I don't blame her for trying to distance herself as much as possible. I quickly made my way into the living room where I was sure that everyone was. I saw a woman with long brunette hair seated on the sofa in the left side of the room. Her attire was casual yet professional, a dark purple blouse, a pair of black jeans and a pair of black flats.

"Hi ,Elliot. I'm doctor Sylvester, but feel free to call me Fate." She said with a breathtaking smile. I smiled widely back, not thinking of how out of character it is of me to actually smile. But for some reason, it happened; and I don't want to question it. "H-hello...F-F-F-Fate...I-it's nice to m-meet you..." I cautiously held my hand out for her to shake it if she chose. I masked my surprise and joy when she did. "So, I came here to assess your mental state and if you need to be placed in our care and if so for how long" Mrs. Sylvester said kindly. I nodded, preparing myself for the questions.

An hour later Fate had finished her assessment and told me and my mother that her office would be contacting us soon to tell us the results. As soon as Fate was gone my mother ran out of the room as if there was a vicious Cheetah after her. I started to go towards my room but when I passed by Delilah's room I decided to visit her for a little while. Knocking on the door I waited for her reply before stepping in.

"Hey,Eli! How are you today?" My twin chirped cheerfully.

"Hey,Lila. I'm good, how are you?" we shared a large smile as we chatted simply.The conversation would be considered boring and average to normal people, but for us it was the first conversation we have had in years that was "normal". There was finally a return to a time before Ellyot. Before we even realized hours had passed with us just joking and interacting with each other the way we had seemingly so long ago. "Hey Dee-" I began to say but looked over at my sister who was contently sleeping, a small smile on her face. "-I think things are gonna be alright... I think as long as I take my medication, everything will be okay again," I gave her a peck on the forehead before laying down beside her and drifting into my own peaceful slumber.