Fat •Jihope•

XXVII

{A/N: Oof I'm bad at updating on time :/}

An awkward silence filled the hallway as they looked at each other. Hoseok looking away quickly and walking back to his room, not know what he did the night before. Just knowing that he woke up with a terrible hangover and regretted drinking. Jimin let out a sad sign as he shuffled to the bathroom.

Closing the door slowly behind him as he walked up to the sink. Taking a quick glance at himself in the mirror. God he looked horrible. The bags under his eyes were worse than before. His eyes looked dead, no glint in them whatsoever. His cheeks were sunken in, making his face look frail.

"No wonder no one wants to look at me. I'm just as disgusting as I was before."

A soft knock on the door made him snap out of his thoughts. He walked over to the door, opening the door to reveal a worried Seokjin. Jin didn't want to admit it but Jimin looked terrible. He looked like he hasn't slept in days and hasn't seen a crumb of food in years.

"Jimin-ah, I made some noodles and wanted to know if you wanted some."

The sound of food made Jimin want to puke. He put on his best fake smile.

"Thank you for asking Jin-hyung, I will have to decline your offer though."

Jin tried not to be to forceful with trying to make Jimin eat, but he's hasn't been eating well in a while. Jin took a deep breath before looking at Jimin more seriously.

"Jimin, I know you're going through a tough time, but you haven't eaten something in a while...I'm just worried, we all are. Please just eat something? It doesn't even have to be much. Just a little?"

Jimin was on the verge of tears listening to Jin say that they were worried about him.

No they're not. Stop falling for their lies.

He looked up a Jin, smiling sadly not wanting to disappoint him even more.

"Alright Jin-hyung."

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He gripped the sides of the toilet seat. The contents of the food he just ate forcefully coming up his throat. His eyes teared up, a desperate gasp leaving his lips as his head hung over the food that was once in his stomach.

He felt disgusted with himself. He couldn't even eat a little bit of food without feeling the urge to puke it back up. He picked himself up from the floor, flushing the toilet and rinsed his face off at the sink. Hopefully no one noticed his sudden disappearance after he ate.

"You just sit there and watch as all of this happens to him. Don't you feel like you need to do something? Don't you know that you're the reason he is like this now?!"

Jimin heard voices from outside the door. He placed his ear against the door, knowing it wasn't nice to eavesdrop but he couldn't help it.

"Yah! Don't you think I know that?! Don't you think that I already feel bad enough?! Do you really think that I wanted to do this to him?!"

It was suddenly quiet. He could definitely tell who that voice belonged to. Hoseok.

"I suffer too, I hate seeing him like that...but the more I stay around him the more these feelings will grow. I can't have that happen."

"And why not?! What's so bad about it?!"

"Oh you wouldn't understand Taehyung."

"I wouldn't understand huh? Tell me so I can understand. What is so bad that you d-"

"It's my parents!!!"

Hoseok huffed and chuckled.

"Hoseok you're a grown ass man what would your parents have to do about anything?"

"You don't get it...if my parents found I liked someone of the same gender..the outcome wont be pretty."

"So? You don't live with them anymore, they can't do anything to you. It's your life, why does it matter?"

"They are everything to me...I wouldn't be the person I am if it wasn't for them."

"Then I guess they raised a pussy."

And with that sentence Taehyung stomped  away, slamming his bedroom door behind him.

"Guess they did.."

Hoseok walked away with those last words. Jimin took a step back from the door. Trying to gather all his thoughts of the conversation he overheard. He pulled out his phone, needing someone to talk to. He looked through his contacts and tapped on a name. He put the phone to his ear and took a deep breath as the person answered.

"Yugyeom...are you busy right now?"

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