Curse named human

Curse named human - Part 05 / 40

A/N: Sign explanation: "......" => speaking, '.......' => thinking, ^.....^ => speaking with somebody the mental way or reading thoughts

Song to this chapter: 03 – ‚Love' did you say?

† Curse named human †

[(ke:s neimd 'hju:men)]

Part 05

'Love' did you say? I'll cut down my wings before they will open

Die looked at his fellow Cherub Hizumi in disbelieve. Not only that they had a lot to do at the boarders in heaven these days. Adding to their important job, rumors started to come up and this never meant any good.
As guardians of the gates to heaven, Cherubim were always the first concerned with changes in their world or the worlds outside. Thus it was their job to pay special attention and to report it to higher authorities.

"Let's hope that it's only a dead end. We have to be careful not to cause an uproar... at least not yet. There will be enough time to bother the Archangels with it." Die added but Hizumi didn't turn off his glare. "And don't look at me like that!" He added with a grin. Hizumi's white eyes still gave him the creeps although they were friends since ages now.

Hizumi though gave a short laugh, knowing that fact but doing it nevertheless. Then he became serious again. "Another similar rumor and we have to report it... you know that."

"I know." Die said. "Until then, let's keep an eye and special ear on everything."

"You bet we do."

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Heaven was always warm, full of light and love but somewhere in this castle, a broken newborn Angel sat all alone in his room and felt cold. Although there was no coldness around him... it came from within.

No memories of kindness or warmth were left. Except of one person ... Shinya..... but what to make out of Hakuei, Toshiya didn't know. He seemed to take care of Toshiya but to what extend?

He distrusted Hakuei. Not because he seemed like a bad Angel but because Toshiya never knew any better. No one did anything for free. What was his reward after he was done with Toshiya? What was his selfish reward to make him act the way he did? And where was this praised free will everybody spoke of and yet Toshiya was captured in another system? Couldn't he just end it now without any interference? It was his goddamn broken soul and he should have all the rights to decide what to do with it. And not some kind of God or Guardian Angel who had crossed his path somehow.

I am against this rules

A half dead, half alive reflection in the mirror. Pale skin and lifeless eyes. That's how he saw himself in the mirror, that's how he recalled to have looked like on earth.

I can not follow that model

Physics were a strange thing. A body was a strange thing and there was always more damage done by it than any good. In every world and aspect. Toshiya lifted his right arm and looked at it.

You created differences

I created differences myself. He looked at the scars. They looked so new although they existed only in his memories. Here in heaven physics didn't exist in a human way. But the pain nevertheless felt real to him.

Dear God, look what we've done with the choice you've given us

With one fast movement of his hand, Toshiya made a sign and on his astral body a long cut appeared right over his white chest. And he did it because he was able to do so. Wishes do become true and yet it didn't bleed, of course not. How should it? There was no mortal feeling of pain but he fantasized it. Drowned in it.