It's becoming hard to breathe.
I see you but I never truly see who you are,
I'll never get that deep.
No, not me.
I tried to give my all,
but it wasn't enough for you.
Flowers aren't beautiful
if they never bloom,
and I know you'd like me to say
that everything is beautiful no matter what
but it's just not true.
Things can get so fucking ugly,
it's not always warm
and we aren't always smiling.
But I sure as hell
wanted it to stay that way forever,
I didn't want it to end up so ruinous.
But darling,
it's hard
when you mix two sad people together.
So you can gather all the happy ones
and let them talk you out of your misery,
let them love you the way I couldn't.
Go ahead,
leave me behind
everyone else did it.
I never did think of you like them
but I guess I was oblivious.
You were so sure,
so sure of us,
of me,
what happened?
The rain didn't put you to sleep,
did it?
I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed.
I'm
so
sorry.
