She fights

Telling

Yesterday the nurse made me stay in her office and rest for the rest of the day. Even though I was fine and I could walk fine. But it was okay because Trey stayed with me all day.
He stayed. For me. With me.
We talked forever and it was just really comfortable and good. I still didn't tell him anything about what actually happened on Sunday. Kim, John, Nick and Jax came which was really awesome and nice. But they all had to go to their classes later on. When school was over my dad came and picked me up. Jill didn't tell him that I told her what actually happened. She just told him that my wound in my side opened and she just had to stitch it up. Trey reluctantly said bye to me and let me go with my dad after he gave me a hug. A very good and warm hug. When we were about to leave Jill said 'be careful skateboarding next time!' with a little laugh and wink. She also gave me some pain killers for the next week. She really is a nice woman, she kind of reminds me of my mom. I wonder if they are looking for me.  Now it is Tuesday morning and I'm getting ready for school. My only escape from my retched life. My dad hasn't said a word to me since Monday morning. I don't want to hear a stupid word coming from his stupid mouth. There are just some things you can't let go and forgive. Today I am wearing a black shirt, dark blue jeans; not ripped to everyone's surprise and my only shoes; my short combat boots. I went into the kitchen to get some water and my dad was just sitting there on his phone. No cup of coffee. No breakfast.
"You have a fight in an exact week." He said looking at me. I almost choked on my water when he said this.
"What? I won't be healed yet!" I exclaim.
"Well then you'll just have to suffer through it," he said with a shrug. I look down feeling the tears come. He really doesn't care about me.
"What if I don't?" I ask looking back up at him.
"You don't have a choice. This fight is very important to me. To us. It will give us so much money!!" He exclaims with a smile at the end.
"Well I don't want to! I don't want to fight anymore dad!! I hate it and you don't give a crap about anyone but yourself! You never have and you never will!!" I yell. By the time I finished he came over to me breathing hard. We glare at each other for five minutes and then my head snaps to the side as I feel his hand connect with my cheek. I don't say anything. I don't cry. I don't yell at him. I don't feel anything.
My father just slapped me.
I never thought he'd do this. I never thought he'd stoop so low.
I look back at him and see sadness and regret instantly. I roll my eyes and run out of the house. He doesn't deserve to feel regret or sadness about anything. I ignore him calling my name and just keep running. I have no idea where I'm going. I'm just running away from that sick man. I just want to go back to my mom. She'd always fight for me with my dad. She'd always be there for me. To listen to my problems. And when they were fighting Haden would be there to comfort me and he would always tell me that everything was going to be okay. I need him telling me that everything's going to be ok right now. I need to have Kate's hugs and her soothing words that somehow helped me even though me and Haden kept her in the dark about what was happening. I didn't realize I was at school until I heard my name being called. My eyes snapped to my group of friends all of their eyes worried. Once again the boys joined us. I walk over to them and give them my best fake smile.
"Hey guys! How are you?" I asked trying to be happy.
"Were you crying?" Kim asked. I put my hands on my cheeks and for sure they are wet. I hurry and wipe my cheeks dry and blink a couple of times.
"Um........yeah my dog just died," I say and look at them sadly.
"Oh no that's so sad! What was it's name?" Jack asks. Of course it would be him. He loves dogs.
"His name was Joey. But it's ok we were expecting it," I say and they all give me a sympathetic smile and said a small sorry except for one. One guy I've been avoiding a lot throughout this whole conversation. I look at him and he's looking at me with worry and a little bit of anger. Everyone else had already gotten in their conversations so I just stood there awkwardly watching them talk to each other. Kim and Jake are talking and laughing they look so cute with each other. The twins and Jack are talking about something intensely. The girl twins aren't here and Hunter and Jane are talking about something. Trey isn't talking to anyone like me and he's just staring at me. He gestures his hand for me to come over. I roll my eyes and walk over.
"Why were you crying?" He whispers in my ear.
"I told you my do-" he cut me off, he knew I was lying.
"Cut the BS. Why were you crying?" He whispers again but this time had more demand. I look down.
"It's nothing important. Nothing about me is," I say tearing up again still looking down. He grabs my hand and my chin and pulls my head up. I try to ignore the warmth from where he's touching me.
"No that's not true. It is important. You are important to many people. Their are just some people that want to make you feel that way because they are selfish jerks," He says softly and looking in my eyes. I look right back.
"You really think so? You really think I'm important?" I ask. If he says no I won't be surprised. I know I'm not. I know I'm not important to anyone. I know I'm not-
"Yes I do," he pauses and smiles. He opens his mouth to continue but is cut off by someone clearing their throat. We both instantly look and he takes his hand off my chin and let's go of my hand. I miss the warmth it gave me.
"What?" I hear him snap then I look at everyone who is smirking.
"Oh nothing," Kim said.
"You guys just got really cozy right there." Nick adds.
"Ya, What were you guys talking about?" John finishes.
"None of your business," Trey snaps at them. They just laugh and get back to their conversations. Trey turns back to me.
"Well are you going to tell me?" He asks.
"I can't," I say and he rolls his eyes I groan lightly, "Well not here." I finish because I know he won't be able to handle me not telling him anything.
His eyes widen in realization that I'm going to tell him. The bell rings and I tip my head forward so only he could see and started to walk to Jills office. She told me yesterday that I could come there anytime I needed to and it seems like her and Trey have a good relationship.
"Hey Jill I was wondering if I could talk to Trey in private?" I ask as I walk in and look behind me and sure enough there he was right behind me. It looks as though he was looking at my butt. But he looked away to fast to tell for sure.
"Oh of course honey! How are you feeling?" She asks with a small sad smile. I put one on myself.
"I'm doing a lot better but this morning was really hard," I say almost crying again. I hurry and blink them away when she starts coming to me.
"No, I'm ok thank you though," I smile.
"Ok well I'm going to go to the teachers lounge and I'll come back, behave yourselves!" And with that she walks out. I look down at the floor I can't believe she said that. I look up at Trey to see what he's doing and regret it instantly.
He's looking at me.
That funny way again.
But for some weird reason, I can't look away.
He starts walking closer to me with an intense gaze.
I can't move either. What's wrong with me?
He gets really close our bodies almost right against each other.
"I want you to be able to tell me everything," he whispered as he put his warm hand on my cheek and once again I leaned into it and closed my eyes.
"I want to be able to tell someone," I tell him. It's true. I do want to be able to tell someone everything. Since I had to leave I haven't had the chance.
"Why don't you tell me?" He whispered and my eyes open. He was smiling slightly.
"It's just really hard," I whisper broken and I close my eyes tight. Trying to fight the tears.
"Take all the time you need," he said as he wiped a tear that had betrayed my eyes with his thumb. When he said those words I instantly knew I was going to be able to tell him anything. He was one of them that I can trust. One of them that I know cares.
One that I might like more than friends.
I take a deep breath.
"My father this morning he.....um.....
he hit me, but this was the very first time that he'd done it so I was shocked." I take another deep breath and look at Trey he has anger in his eyes.
"He hit me all because I didn't want to do something that he's been making me do for a long time. When I was still with my mom I got away with not doing it when I didn't want to. She'd always make an excuse as to why I couldn't do it that night or why I shouldn't do it. But now that I have to live here with him," I pause as my voice broke and tears made their way down involuntarily I take another shaky breath, "I have no choice. So you see that's why I was crying this morning." I finish and look back at him. He's still pretty close but not as close as before. In one fast second I was in his warm big embrace breathing in his cologne. I slowly and hesitantly put my arms around his torso. His muscles in his back tensed a little at first but then they soon relaxed under my touch.
"I'm sorry that has happened to you, and I know I'm asking for a lot when I ask this but what does he make you do?" He asked sounding unsure. I don't know if I could tell him. What if he doesn't like me anymore because I do illegal things. After a while of silence he pulls back and looks at me. I look away.
"Come on, just tell me. I like you to much to stop liking you because of one bad thing." He said. Wait he likes me? How? As a friend? As more than a friend?
"Um.......ok so please don't freak out," I plead he nods, "My dad is really into fighting and so he brought me into it as I grew up and so he trained me and I kept getting stronger and before I knew it I was a street fighter and a dang good one. I still am today and he keeps making me fight. I don't like it. But he keeps making me just so he can get money. He's so selfish. Ugh I hate him!!! How do you hit your own daughter?!?!?" I yell the last two parts.
"I don't know. Your a street fighter like for real?" He asks I nod.
"That's pretty cool. I mean ya it is illegal and wrong of your dad to do that to you but it's kind of hot," he says with a stupid smile then his eyes widen when he realizes what he's said. Then he just stares at me and I stare at him the entire room going silent. He puts his hand on my cheek except it's the one that has now a scab for the cut to heal. He lightly rubs his finger along the exposed skin.
"Will you tell me about this?" He asks with a slight pout looking like a stupid cute boy!!
Cute?
Yes cute. Really cute.
I start to have flashbacks of what happened on Sunday. I need to tell him or I'll explode!!! Telling only one person does not help enough. Especially when it's a secret as big as mine. 
"Ok," my voice breaks and he leaves me and gets a drink of water and hands it to me. He's not even that close to me anymore and I️ miss him.
"So on Sunday when I️ got home I️ saw my dad and three other men in my front room. I️ knew something wasn't right but I️ told my dad that I️ was sorry that I️ was late and that I️ had to eat some breakfast and he seemed ok and all. I️ was relived to know that he was ok and stuff. But then one of the guys stood up and looked like he was going to fight me but my dad stopped him and I️ thought my dad going to save me. Oh how wrong I️ was." I️ say looking down. I️ don't want to see Treys stupid cute face.
"When my dad stopped him he only did it because he hadn't paid him yet and after he gave my dad a big wad of cash he came at me. He was easy to take down though. All throughout the beginning of this I️ was asking my dad what was happening and yelling for him to help. He didn't even move once. The next guy stood up and I️ took a lot of gut punches. But I️ eventually kneed the crap out of his crotch and he fell to the floor." I️ smile slightly as I️ remember how loud he groaned.
"Then the next guy stood up. By this time I️ was a little dizzy and tired. But my dad didn't care he just took the money. The last guy destroyed me. I️ ended up passing out. But before I️ passed out all the way," my voice broke for the millionth time, "I️ saw my dad. He was counting money. That's all. Not even caring if his daughter wasn't going to make it. When I️ woke up I️ woke in a pool of blood. My blood. So I️ guess that they used a knife on me when I️ was passed out. I️ have so many cuts on my thighs. They burn all the time and you've already seen the stab wound. So, my dad had let those three men come in our house to try my fighting skills and almost kill me for money. FOR FREAKIN MONEY!!!" I️ yell the last part sobbing and choking on air.
"So I️ guess I'm not important to anybody. I'm just something to use. Because I️ get screwed over and over and over and I'm not sure if I️ can keep getting screwed over. I️ don't know if I️ can handle it anymore. I️ just want to give up. I️ wish that they would have just let me bleed out. I️ wish that all the time. I️ just want to be happy again." I️ say sob free but now that I'm done I️ start to cry my eyes out again. I'm about to fall to the floor until I️ feel two strong arms being put around me and holding me tight.
"No don't say that. You are so important. Maybe not to that awful thing you call a father but you are important to your friends and wherever your mom and brother is." He says while stroking my hair and rubbing my back while I cry on him.
"And you're one of the most important people in my life," he whispers this time. My eyes open as I realize what he said.
I'm one of the most important people in his life.
I didn't think he liked me that way. I didn't even think he liked me at all. I pull back from his warm and happy embrace and look in his eyes.
"Really?" I ask with a small smile. He nods and gets closer to me. He gets so close our noses are touching. Is he going to kiss me?
I want him to.
He gets closer and puts his hands on my waist. As our lips are about to touch there's a knock on the door. He jumps back surprised at the sudden sound in the room. He still seems shocked so I open the door to Jill. I open it wider and walk back in.
"Hey kiddos! It's time to go to class now get out of here!" She says and laughs. I look at Trey one last time and walk away to my class.