after Augustus

Chapter 7

Hello!!! this chapter will certainly throw you off. there will be a HUGE twist! its will be a longer chapter. So long i have started writing this right after i published chapter 6. not insanely long, but the longest chapter yet. so i hope you like it! if you have any ideas on how to progress with the story feel free to let me know in a message of whatever. Ok Im gonna shut up now! Sorry for wasting a few minutes of your life if you actually read this. Listen to Ho Hey By The Lumineers. i picked this because of the meaning not the lyrics exactly.

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"Um hey?" i said breaking the awkward silence. "Hazel im guessing?" he says "Correct." i see the paused TV screen from where he was playing the Price Of Dawn.  "Im guessing you heard the news?" Did we not? "Oh yeah! Congrats! You should see my new hair cut! i shaved it ALL off!!!" It was fun to mess with him, he takes everything to literal. its hilarious. "WHAT!?!?!" I started laughing hysterically. "you idiot! Why would i shave my head?" he stopped to think for a second. "Well if your cancer progressed you might under go chemo or maybe........you might have because he..." He stopped knowing i knew what he was going to say. "Look, im sorry." I needed to get back on track. so just like that i told him everything. "What? whats her problem?" Then my phone goes off. a text from Katelyn. 

Katelyn: CALL ME NOW, DON'T ASK QUESTIONS.

"Um Isacc i need a minute, Katelyn needs me to talk to her. "ok"

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"Hey Whats wrong?"

"So your telling me you know that Monica girl?"

"Yeah...."

"Well, Darling im so sorry."

"What in the world? Katelyn talk to me!"

i hear violent sobs from her on the other end.

"She.....She......Was in a car crash.... on her way to talk to Isacc."

"And...... is she ok?"

"Shes gone."

"Oh God Katelyn im at Isaac's right  now!! i will tell him."

"Ok..i need to go....."

"ok, bye."

Just like that. i hang up.

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Listen to Apologize by Timbland or Come on get Higher by Matt Nathanson

Im still in a bit of shock. someone so young snatched from the world. just like that. i didn't really know her but some did. its a cruel thing. i look over at Isacc doing nothing. "I may not be able to see but i know when somethings wrong." he says "Isacc" I lift him up and we sit together on the edge of the bed side by side. "Monica was in a car crash." he seems alert. "And...." he says "She passed away. it was quick and painless. you alright?" he dos'nt say anything for a while. I swear i see a tear fall from his eyes, under his sun glasses. he starts crying and then sniffling and sobbing. he leans his head on my shoulder and i hug him as a way of affection and to hold him up. "Its......its just.....not fair..." he says "I did'nt know her long but when i did......i loved her..." Then in say "I know. We are young. its not fair to snatch someone this young from the world, you don't understand and nether do i.  but its life. we can't always control our fate. or anyone else." I felt my self start to cry. For Isacc, Monica, And Augustus. we both sat there for what felt like an eternity. i am broken. we are both broken. we keep letting the ones we love slip from the world into who knows where. "I might seem crazy but she helped take my mind off the whole eye-blindness-surgery thing. she hurt me but it also helped me." i couldn't help but reach over and give him a hug. we both sat there crying for all different reasons. when someone young dies the YOLO rule seems more in forced which ultimately seems to cause more deaths. It leads to more drunk drivers and more dangerous things. Like Augustus said in Amsterdam 'I want to die knowing i did something that mattered.' i now live by that rule. im thinking about publishing a book. but i always end up crying or yelling. i look at Isacc wondering what its like to be blind. i wonder what he sees. Black? i guess i would never know. Isaccs mom came down stairs. I can tell by the look on her face she knew. she didn't want Isacc to see her so she peeked through the door. she signalled a thumbs up with a frowney face. i nodded towards her and she tip toed up stairs. Isacc sat up and I said "You ok?" he faced straight ahead and said "I wish i was able to say yes." it seemed as we both used up all our tears and could not cry anymore.  i wasn't really focused by then i swear i heard him whisper "I love you."