Behind The Eyes (Fantasy\Mystery\Romance) «®RATED R®» NOT FINISHED

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«∞Beep-∞-Beep∞»
Amber Cried "It's morning already?".
The alarm starts ringing once more.
«∞Beep-∞-Beep∞»
Amber Moans "Shut Up I heard you!".
While Amber complained, her mom started cooking.
Its like every day, over and over again.
Its like amber re-lives her life every day over and over again...
Like she is stuck, or maybe lost?
Like shes lost in her own mind?
A puzzle, and a piece is missing?
Amber is always searching for an answer. But the only thing she finds is hope, that always dies out. Thoughts like "does anyone even love me? ". Amber lived in pain all her life.

(-------------AMBERS P.O.V------------)
P.O.V*(!)*P.O.V*(!)*P.O.V*(!)*P.O.V*(!)*

The blood Drips off my arm, to the school bathrooms sink. The slits in my wrist was no longer just bleeding but, the blood started seeing out of my sleeve. I quickly pulled my sleeve up and washed the blood. The blood was a dark red and had some purple color. The sleeve I liked cutting on, started swelling. The pain was over the level of insanity. It was as if my arm was a war of its self. The blood runs in the cold water, reminding me of my life. Cold but not enough to want to die. Its not that I'm crazy! I just like the pain, because some people deserve it. They deserve to suffer, to cry, and to fill any thing that hurts. Even though my arm is in pain, I did not cry. As I fill my mind with my dark and deep, and yet scary thoughts, I hear a door open. I was fast at making it look like nothing. I kicked the sink to stop running the water. And I jumped into a stall to my right. With all the noise I was making, still the girl who walked in asked nothing. Maybe she was deaf?! The girl who seemed to be about my age, seventeen or sixteen-ish. She wore a black shirt with skin tight leggings. Her small white bow in her hair made her look sort of... Cute? Her hair was shiny as hell! The hair almost touched the bathroom floor. It was black and full. Talking about full her lips were full and big. Her deep tone gree-nish eyes were hiding in her glasses. Her glasses made her look even better. After my daydreaming while just staring at her, she asked, "are you okay? I'm new and uh don't relly know what's really going on" I was in shock, that this hot girl was even talking to me. For a second I just stood there. Then finely found the courage to speak. "Oh? Sorry I was just uh daydreaming...you can carry on! I'm just a little off...today..."
The girl replied "oh...well have fun doing your stuff? See you later cutie" She winked at me leaving me breathless. I felt as I was getting pushed of a waterfall, and get soaked with love. As I stood like a complete loser, just staring at my refection. My mind was questioning me with hate. Before I could hurt myself the bell rang.

(+ *RRIINNGG*::*RRIINNHG* +)

I ran out of the bathroom, to go to class. It was 5th period, mathematics. I hated 5th period but if I skipped today, I would get fucked up. While I was walking I heard a sound coming from the principal office. I decided I should check up with him. He asked me to speck with him sometime this week. As I walked, I looked down. I always looked down because I was slightly scared of "him" When I walked in, I saw something I would never expected.