Between Coffee & Affection

eleven ღ fear

do you ever feel as if your world is spinning out of control? as if all you knew, and all you thought you knew, vanished into thin air? have you ever thought you found your way, and lost it?

it's as if you were beginning to see a clearing in your once wooded path, just to have a tree fall right in front of your face. it's the worst possible feeling to know that if you could've been a little quicker, moved a little faster, you would've dodged the tree all together; you'd still be on your way. but it's only a tree, right? just jump over it and be on your way. but there are many more obstacles to overcome, unbeknownst to you.

now as you think you've dodged the worst possible part of your journey, you reach another block in the road. this one is bigger, it's monstrous. the one obstacle that you cannot overcome is fear. it may seem simple to overcome, but as it stares you in the face, you do not know how to go about getting past it. for your world is unaligned, your thoughts are jumbled; and staring fear in the face is something your unorganized mind cannot handle.

so you pace back and forth, feeling as if the fear is eating you alive as you try to piece your broken mind back together to somehow figure out how to get past. better things surely await on the opposite side, right? so you take your fractured thoughts, and piece them together; they may not be perfect, but the jagged edges don't hurt as much as the fear does.

you turn to face your fear, whatever it may be, and you stare it down. you scream at the top of your lungs, as if warding it off; this is your path, fear is not welcome on your grounds. now you watch: you watch as the fear shrivels away into nothingness. as the fear vanishes, your thoughts come back, your world realigns itself. you feel as if you can breathe again; and as you look upon the clear path ahead, you know that the worst is over.

you have conquered your fear, and you can move forward again; find out what awaits at the end of your path.