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I love you

You love her

She loves someone else

That someone else is me

You hate me cuz she fell in love with me

She fell in love with me cuz I made her happy

Her happiness of me was an accident

An accident that I thought was normal

To me normal wasn't going to change

No I was wrong change did change

A change that I would regret later

Regret without any notice

I notice nothing I was blinded

Blinded in why you changed

I was wondering the word why

Why have you become so aggressive & annoyed

You were angry of one thing

And that is me what have I ever done?

You thought I was stupid when I asked

Yeah I was I still am to realize it now

I knew there was something you liked about her

Something made me think you loved her

You did I was right I felt sadness

Sadness that you never loved me

You saw me as a friend it was different for me

For me I always wanted you to love me

To love me as you loved her

Dumb of me to say this "she was in your eyes"

In your eyes that made me feel jealous

Being jealous was hard to hide it from you

Hiding was a way so I wouldn't hurt our friendship

I wanted that friendship to last

Our friendship kept hurting me

It hurts my heart to say we're not more than friends

Although the word friend hurts me more

What hurted me more was you were furious

Furious at what? huh! at what!

That I was with her she was the one

She was the one with me she wanted to be

To be hers I just wanted us to be friends

Her attached to me was impossible

Impossible for me to break her heart

Breaking her would be me all over again

Seeing me as her was unacceptable

Unacceptable to see another suffer

Suffering struggling all by myself trying to hide

Trying to hide the fact that I loved you

Loved you then there was her she found me

Found me crying all alone that day

The day I made her fall in love with me

Why me why did she fall for me?

Me as being her first love

Her first love since when? I thought to myself

The thought came to me so I told her why

Why I matter to her that's when she told me

She told me she was afraid of being judged

Being judged by everyone she knew

She felt betrayed by her "friends"

Her friends wanted her money her love

Love for them to get free gifts & money

Money meant for them not her

To them was all a joke

A joke that was funny to see her reactions

They saw her reactions as disgusting, useless

Yeah disgust & worthless were what people saw

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