A love like this (Prinxiety)

Animal

Roman Pov

Patton wasn't doing well. Actually, he was doing terrible. It would be hard for a father to see his son in so much pain. But, anx is actually doing better. I got him to eat at least one meal a day. And he's going to let me in his room, for all the wrong reasons, but he still will.

Anger is the worst. Patton can't hear the banging. Logic flinches every time he screams.  I know that all of this is breaking him. Mentally and physically.  No one was handling this well, yet we manged to keep Thomas functioning. This is good, right? I have to check on him.

(a/n this is all written on post it notes, but written like dialogue. ok?ok.)

"Hey anx"

"Yeah, roman?"

"You're hand writing is real pretty"

"You're lying, most people can't read it"

"That's because its script"

"Ok, whatever"

"How are you doing?"

"Sucky"

"Will you let me bandage you up?"

"What do you mean?"

"Your fist can't possibly be undamaged"

"Fine, but the second you're done, you're out of my room"

"Thanks, i'll be back soon"

I ran and got the first aid kit. Usually, logic would be doing this, but he's not coming anywhere near him. I also got a lot of snacks and bottles of water, just in case.

Knock. knock. He opened the door. His room was a mess and so was he.

"Your fists aren't the only thing damaged" i said.

"I know, just hurry"

"It's nice to hear voice again" I said, tears rolling down my face.

"Please don't cry"

I just nodded and started to clean up he cuts. He winced every time i touched one. 

"This is not good, i'm cleaning you're room too"

"Fine, but you have tell Patton that i'm ok"

"I was going to that anyway. I don't like lying to him, but it's hard to see him break like this"

Then he started crying and got up. He played a song. Animal. 

"You're not a monster"

"I know, but i never said that."

He started singing along, but he changed the words from girl to boy.

Baby boy, i'm not quite human
And i'm not quite a machine

So i guess that leave you staring

At something that's somewhere in between

Yeah, i'm another, hungry lover

But i was born a different breed

"He only hurt you emotionally, right?"

"Yeah, i wish that wasn't true because i deserve the pain he gave me"

"That's not true, I love you know"

"Really?"

"I was so jealous the entire time you guys were dating." He just nodded and played the song again

I wish I could give you my and my soul
But inside my chest there is nobody home

"Do you now what you're signing up for?"

"Yes"

"I don't even know if I can love," he whispered, "I don't even know what real love is"

"That's okay"

"What if i do what he did?"

"You won't"

"If this doesn't go the way you want it to, promise me you'll try to fix it instead of giving up and leaving me"

"I promise"

"Thank you"

"Now quit pausing the song and let it play"

"No, i'm going to change it"

"Be careful, you're room is still a mess"

"So am I"

"Please don't get up"

"Come on, Roman, let go"

"I will start playing temporary bliss"( i recommend you listen to the song. Like now. So you get their conversation, or at least search up the lyrics)

"Oh princey, i would never do that to you"

"I know anx, but I don't want us to end up like me and depression"

"Depression and I"

"Never hang out with logic again"

He laughed. He's laughing. He went from breaking his walls to laughing. I love him so.

"You're laugh is beautiful"

"No, it's not. Nothing i about me is, why else would he leave me?"

Oh no. The five stages of grief. Denial had passed. Anger was done. Bargaining barely lasted. Depression was coming. 

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Sorry that was so long. There was a lot of dialogue and that always takes up space. Also, sorry for the kinda song change. This chapter wasn't that good. Sorry about it. Fun facts: I rewrote this chapter 4 times and it started off being about the song temporary bliss. I hoped you listened too it. I'm sorry that you had to go and search for the song, but you really wouldn't get what he meant if you didn't Another fun fact, the song it called Sorry.  

This was way too long, sorry. Well anyway, thanks for reading. Comment, vote, whatever.

-SoftxRacoon

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